1
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Think of your worst pain
and then stretch it out

2
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over day in and day out
every day.

3
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[woman 1 tearfully]
<i>Somewhere in me is this</i>

4
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<i>little glimmer of hope.</i>

5
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<i>I just want to be
a normal person.</i>

6
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[groans softly]

7
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[panting]

8
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<i>[man 1] You can't do it</i>

9
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and then I just get mad.

10
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<i>[woman 2] If I don't make
a change now</i>

11
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<i>I'm scared it's gonna
be too late.</i>

12
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[moaning]

13
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It hurts.

14
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<i>[woman 3] I refuse
to stop fighting.</i>

15
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<i>I have to do this
for my children.</i>

16
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This is a very dangerous
situation you are in

17
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and God knows if you're gonna

18
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survive four months.

19
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[slow instrumental
music playing]

20
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[Ontreon Shannon] <i>The first
thing that comes to my mind is,</i>

21
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<i>"Am I fighting
a losing a battle?</i>

22
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<i>Because of the medical issues
that I have."</i>

23
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<i>I have congestive heart failure</i>

24
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<i>and I'm in advanced stages
of diabetes.</i>

25
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<i>I have two or three different
doctors that said</i>

26
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<i>I would be lucky to even see 40.</i>

27
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<i>The worst is already beginning
to happen.</i>

28
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<i>It's definitely no way to live.</i>

29
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<i>I take about
13 to 14 different medications</i>

30
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<i>to make sure my heart
does not fail.</i>

31
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<i>And that's the only thing that
keeps me out of the hospital.</i>

32
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<i>Being this big is horrible.</i>

33
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<i>Think of your worst pain</i>

34
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and then stretch it out

35
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over day in and day out
every day.

36
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Some days it's hard for me
to even get out of bed.

37
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<i>But I gotta keep moving.</i>

38
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<i>I have a wife to take care of.</i>

39
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<i>I have a mother to help out
as much as I can.</i>

40
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<i>Just in the last month,</i>

41
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<i>recently due to
my health concerns,</i>

42
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<i>me and my wife...</i>

43
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<i>I have moved in with my mom,</i>

44
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<i>got to the point to where there
are things that I need help with.</i>

45
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<i>It's just to much for Musa
to do to help</i>

46
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provide what is needed
and that's...

47
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It'll just make you feel uneasy.

48
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<i>I don't like to burden
my wife, Nothabo,</i>

49
00:03:04,818 --> 00:03:06,985
<i>to come and help me
with everything.</i>

50
00:03:07,754 --> 00:03:10,155
<i>So I've had to really
plan out, you know?</i>

51
00:03:11,024 --> 00:03:12,824
<i>Whatever I try to do on my own,</i>

52
00:03:12,826 --> 00:03:14,593
<i>I do very carefully.</i>

53
00:03:20,500 --> 00:03:23,435
<i>I usually do what I call
a pre-wash.</i>

54
00:03:24,771 --> 00:03:27,806
<i>I just try
to put soap everywhere</i>

55
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<i>and wash really good
from a sit down position</i>

56
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<i>outside the tub.</i>

57
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<i>And then usually I get
inside the shower to rinse off.</i>

58
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<i>And the reason why
I do it that way</i>

59
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<i>is because I can only stand up
for about five minutes,</i>

60
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<i>and I have slipped
and fallen in the tub before.</i>

61
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<i>So I try to take
as much measures</i>

62
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<i>to prevent a fall
as much as possible</i>

63
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<i>and not to overdo it.</i>

64
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<i>I usually don't shower by myself</i>

65
00:03:59,240 --> 00:04:02,307
<i>unless my wife or my mom
are close enough to hear me.</i>

66
00:04:02,309 --> 00:04:04,376
<i>If I need to call out for help.</i>

67
00:04:07,247 --> 00:04:09,248
<i>After I finish taking a shower</i>

68
00:04:09,250 --> 00:04:11,183
<i>I'm ready to lay back down.</i>

69
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<i>Not necessarily go back to bed</i>

70
00:04:13,921 --> 00:04:15,454
<i>but I have to rest.</i>

71
00:04:18,024 --> 00:04:20,559
<i>You know, just because
to go take a shower</i>

72
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<i>that takes away
all of my energy.</i>

73
00:04:24,664 --> 00:04:28,734
<i>I'm simply just not able
to move like I used to.</i>

74
00:04:28,736 --> 00:04:31,470
<i>Even just getting dressed
and stuff like that.</i>

75
00:04:32,338 --> 00:04:34,473
<i>There's a challenge
on every end.</i>

76
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Hey, you going to make lunch?

77
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Uh-huh. What do you want
to have for lunch?

78
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- Pizza.
- [Musa laughs]

79
00:04:46,954 --> 00:04:48,220
But you know what?

80
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I'm gonna make fish.

81
00:04:51,558 --> 00:04:53,992
- And some rice?
- [Musa] Rice?

82
00:04:53,994 --> 00:04:56,228
I'm not gonna make the rice
like Mommy does,

83
00:04:56,230 --> 00:04:58,163
with butter and stuff.

84
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I'm not gonna do that.

85
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Well, baby, okay.

86
00:05:00,367 --> 00:05:03,101
Well, baby, why don't we put
some of that cheese on there?

87
00:05:03,103 --> 00:05:05,270
- On rice.
- No, no, no, no.

88
00:05:07,173 --> 00:05:09,841
<i>[Ontreon] My relationship
with food is definitely</i>

89
00:05:09,843 --> 00:05:12,311
<i>a very unhealthy relationship.</i>

90
00:05:12,845 --> 00:05:15,047
<i>But with all my health issues</i>

91
00:05:15,049 --> 00:05:17,949
<i>and just the pain
that it takes for me to do</i>

92
00:05:17,951 --> 00:05:20,886
<i>the most basic daily function,</i>

93
00:05:20,888 --> 00:05:24,589
<i>I am always overwhelmed
and highly stressed,</i>

94
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<i>and food is how I process that.</i>

95
00:05:27,360 --> 00:05:28,994
<i>I can comfort myself</i>

96
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<i>from the stress and the exertion</i>

97
00:05:31,332 --> 00:05:34,599
<i>and enjoy a moment
not dealing with all that.</i>

98
00:05:35,935 --> 00:05:38,003
<i>But on bad days
the overwhelmingness</i>

99
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<i>is a bottomless pit.</i>

100
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<i>So I eat and try to forget
about my life</i>

101
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<i>and all the things
that I've been through.</i>

102
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<i>It seems like there's
so many things to forget.</i>

103
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I come from
a single parent home.

104
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<i>I did know my father</i>

105
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<i>but he was still
not in the household.</i>

106
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<i>So I was raised by my mother</i>

107
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<i>and she made sure that</i>

108
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as I child I didn't want
for anything.

109
00:06:01,795 --> 00:06:04,062
<i>And I didn't realize until</i>

110
00:06:04,064 --> 00:06:06,498
<i>my later teenage years,
she struggled.</i>

111
00:06:07,100 --> 00:06:08,633
If Mom had to work two jobs

112
00:06:08,635 --> 00:06:10,268
she would just went
and worked two jobs.

113
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If she had to work three jobs,
well, that's what she did.

114
00:06:13,039 --> 00:06:16,074
<i>My siblings were with our dad.</i>

115
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<i>So I was the only one that was in
the house while Mom was working.</i>

116
00:06:19,847 --> 00:06:21,947
<i>But my grandparents,
at the time,</i>

117
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<i>my grandmother, she was retired,</i>

118
00:06:25,018 --> 00:06:27,219
<i>and so I spent a lot of times
there with her.</i>

119
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And what do we do? We eat.

120
00:06:29,289 --> 00:06:31,156
We play games, but we eat.

121
00:06:31,158 --> 00:06:32,991
We do this, but we eat.

122
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And so food

123
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and good food
was always present.

124
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How many calories is that?

125
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- What you're supposed to eat.
- [both laugh]

126
00:06:45,238 --> 00:06:46,338
You gonna put some honey on it?

127
00:06:46,340 --> 00:06:49,408
Oh. [laughs] Cinnamon.

128
00:06:49,842 --> 00:06:51,543
We was a church going family.

129
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My grandparents and my mother
definitely kept me in church a lot.

130
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<i>Every Sunday we can guarantee
that we was there at church,</i>

131
00:06:59,052 --> 00:07:02,554
<i>and so that was a good thing,
it helped me stay grounded.</i>

132
00:07:03,656 --> 00:07:05,957
Food was just a big thing
in our home.

133
00:07:05,959 --> 00:07:08,960
My mom was a cook,
my aunties are cooks.

134
00:07:08,962 --> 00:07:11,863
<i>We celebrated with eating</i>

135
00:07:11,865 --> 00:07:14,099
<i>everywhere we went,
church meals.</i>

136
00:07:14,567 --> 00:07:15,934
<i>I worked a lot.</i>

137
00:07:16,035 --> 00:07:17,202
<i>He was home a lot.</i>

138
00:07:17,204 --> 00:07:20,038
I worked a lot,
he was at my parent's a lot.

139
00:07:20,040 --> 00:07:21,840
<i>He got everything he wanted</i>

140
00:07:21,842 --> 00:07:23,575
<i>and some he didn't want.</i>

141
00:07:23,577 --> 00:07:26,711
<i>So, yeah, I think
that's what started...</i>

142
00:07:26,713 --> 00:07:28,780
<i>I, I just think
that he was available</i>

143
00:07:28,782 --> 00:07:31,383
to everything he wanted
whenever he wanted it.

144
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[Ontreon]
<i>In elementary school,</i>

145
00:07:34,688 --> 00:07:37,689
<i>I was 20, 30 pounds overweight,</i>

146
00:07:37,691 --> 00:07:40,725
<i>you know, nothing that no one
really noticed.</i>

147
00:07:40,727 --> 00:07:42,961
<i>But it definitely became
more of a issue</i>

148
00:07:42,963 --> 00:07:45,564
in middle school,
around the 7th grade area,

149
00:07:45,566 --> 00:07:47,566
<i>because when I was 12</i>

150
00:07:47,568 --> 00:07:50,569
<i>my grandfather up
and had a stroke and died.</i>

151
00:07:50,571 --> 00:07:53,538
<i>And food definitely became
more of a comfort.</i>

152
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So dealing with
the grief of that

153
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instead of reaching
to other sources

154
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<i>I kind of let all that go.</i>

155
00:08:00,013 --> 00:08:03,782
<i>To try to fill a void
that you can't fill with food.</i>

156
00:08:03,784 --> 00:08:07,285
<i>And so that's when I started really
noticing that was an issue at school.</i>

157
00:08:08,721 --> 00:08:11,823
<i>Then my estranged father died
of a heart attack.</i>

158
00:08:11,825 --> 00:08:14,826
<i>And even though I never spent
any time with him</i>

159
00:08:14,828 --> 00:08:16,561
<i>I was overwhelmed with grief.</i>

160
00:08:16,563 --> 00:08:18,396
The lack of care,

161
00:08:18,698 --> 00:08:20,031
I became present

162
00:08:20,099 --> 00:08:24,002
and then so definitely the
weight added on quickly after that.

163
00:08:24,871 --> 00:08:26,104
Lord, bless this food

164
00:08:26,272 --> 00:08:27,906
let it be nourishing to our
bodies in the name of Jesus.

165
00:08:27,908 --> 00:08:29,207
Bless the hands that made it.

166
00:08:29,209 --> 00:08:31,109
Lord, we thank you
for all that you have done.

167
00:08:31,111 --> 00:08:32,577
In Jesus' name. Amen.

168
00:08:32,579 --> 00:08:33,578
Amen.

169
00:08:35,014 --> 00:08:36,848
<i>[Ontreon] And by the time
I turned 18,</i>

170
00:08:36,850 --> 00:08:39,551
<i>my weight was around 450 pounds.</i>

171
00:08:39,553 --> 00:08:42,988
<i>I ended up dropping out
of college after one semester.</i>

172
00:08:42,990 --> 00:08:46,157
<i>I got a job working
in security at a retail store.</i>

173
00:08:46,859 --> 00:08:48,059
<i>The job paid well.</i>

174
00:08:48,061 --> 00:08:49,661
<i>For seven years</i>

175
00:08:49,663 --> 00:08:52,664
<i>working ten to 14-hour days.</i>

176
00:08:52,666 --> 00:08:55,901
<i>At first my size worked
in my favor.</i>

177
00:08:55,903 --> 00:08:58,737
<i>Being big helped
intimidate customers</i>

178
00:08:58,739 --> 00:09:00,939
<i>who came to steal things.</i>

179
00:09:00,941 --> 00:09:04,142
<i>And that's when I started to
have health issues of my own,</i>

180
00:09:04,144 --> 00:09:07,979
<i>and I got diagnosed
with congestive heart failure.</i>

181
00:09:07,981 --> 00:09:11,550
<i>And then the cardiologist
cut me off as a patient.</i>

182
00:09:11,552 --> 00:09:12,951
<i>And she said that there's</i>

183
00:09:12,953 --> 00:09:14,686
<i>nothing that we can do for you.</i>

184
00:09:14,688 --> 00:09:16,221
<i>I lost my job at the store,</i>

185
00:09:16,223 --> 00:09:18,757
<i>and had a total
mental breakdown.</i>

186
00:09:18,759 --> 00:09:21,126
<i>I ended up becoming suicidal.</i>

187
00:09:21,128 --> 00:09:23,194
<i>And then as I was making plans</i>

188
00:09:23,196 --> 00:09:25,564
<i>to make my ultimate escape</i>

189
00:09:25,566 --> 00:09:27,799
<i>from all the pain and burdens</i>

190
00:09:27,801 --> 00:09:29,334
<i>of my situation,</i>

191
00:09:29,336 --> 00:09:31,670
<i>all of a sudden
there was a inner peace</i>

192
00:09:31,672 --> 00:09:33,438
<i>that I surrendered to.</i>

193
00:09:33,440 --> 00:09:36,875
<i>It was like God was saying,
"I got you."</i>

194
00:09:36,877 --> 00:09:39,210
<i>So the fact that I'm still here</i>

195
00:09:39,212 --> 00:09:42,113
<i>it's only because
of God's grace.</i>

196
00:09:44,083 --> 00:09:46,117
<i>So I made a pact with God</i>

197
00:09:46,119 --> 00:09:48,753
<i>to change my ways around eating.</i>

198
00:09:48,755 --> 00:09:51,256
<i>I found a little odd jobs
here and there</i>

199
00:09:51,258 --> 00:09:53,158
<i>and then I got into driving</i>

200
00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:55,226
<i>for ride share companies.</i>

201
00:09:56,929 --> 00:09:59,197
<i>That was more forgiving
on my body</i>

202
00:09:59,199 --> 00:10:02,100
<i>because I didn't have
to stand all day.</i>

203
00:10:02,102 --> 00:10:04,102
<i>I tried intermittent fasting</i>

204
00:10:04,104 --> 00:10:06,905
<i>and was able to lose
almost 200 pounds</i>

205
00:10:06,907 --> 00:10:08,573
<i>in a short amount of time.</i>

206
00:10:10,810 --> 00:10:13,244
<i>And this is when
I met my wife, Nothabo,</i>

207
00:10:13,246 --> 00:10:14,980
<i>who I call Musa.</i>

208
00:10:14,982 --> 00:10:17,115
Ontreon is my husband.

209
00:10:17,117 --> 00:10:19,250
<i>We met... He was my driver.</i>

210
00:10:19,252 --> 00:10:22,087
<i>I guess it was love
at first sight.</i>

211
00:10:22,788 --> 00:10:24,155
We got married, um...
[chuckles softly]

212
00:10:24,157 --> 00:10:27,058
Within a month we married.

213
00:10:27,060 --> 00:10:29,561
<i>He's been like this
ever since I met him.</i>

214
00:10:30,162 --> 00:10:32,030
<i>But the past two years,</i>

215
00:10:32,032 --> 00:10:33,098
he hasn't changed.

216
00:10:33,100 --> 00:10:34,232
So I'm doubting

217
00:10:34,234 --> 00:10:36,234
<i>if he loses that weight.</i>

218
00:10:40,006 --> 00:10:41,373
<i>[Ontreon] We have been
going strong</i>

219
00:10:41,375 --> 00:10:43,141
<i>over two years.</i>

220
00:10:43,143 --> 00:10:44,643
<i>But at the same time</i>

221
00:10:44,645 --> 00:10:46,878
<i>I began gaining weight</i>

222
00:10:46,880 --> 00:10:49,247
<i>and then it just gradually
kept going up.</i>

223
00:10:50,416 --> 00:10:51,983
You know what
the rice is missing?

224
00:10:52,351 --> 00:10:53,118
Butter?

225
00:10:53,120 --> 00:10:54,986
- You bet ya.
- No.

226
00:10:54,988 --> 00:10:57,422
- I'm not going to be doing that kind of rice.
- [Ontreon laughs]

227
00:10:59,992 --> 00:11:01,993
<i>[Ontreon] I do thank God that</i>

228
00:11:01,995 --> 00:11:04,462
<i>I do have a wife
that is willing to be there</i>

229
00:11:04,897 --> 00:11:05,930
<i>to help me out.</i>

230
00:11:08,134 --> 00:11:10,568
<i>[Musa] When I met him
he was moving around.</i>

231
00:11:10,570 --> 00:11:13,004
<i>I saw that he was willing
to change</i>

232
00:11:13,006 --> 00:11:15,006
<i>and so I gave him</i>

233
00:11:15,008 --> 00:11:16,241
<i>a chance.</i>

234
00:11:16,809 --> 00:11:18,610
But now he wants a family.

235
00:11:18,612 --> 00:11:20,979
I cannot give it to him unless

236
00:11:20,981 --> 00:11:23,948
<i>he loses that weight
so that we help each other.</i>

237
00:11:25,551 --> 00:11:27,118
You done?

238
00:11:27,120 --> 00:11:29,054
- [Ontreon] Thank you, baby doll.
- [Musa] Oh.

239
00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:31,156
It was really actually good.

240
00:11:31,158 --> 00:11:32,490
Compliments to the chef.

241
00:11:32,925 --> 00:11:34,025
Mmm.

242
00:11:34,794 --> 00:11:36,027
[Ontreon laughs]

243
00:11:45,071 --> 00:11:46,871
<i>[Ontreon] Every time we go out</i>

244
00:11:46,873 --> 00:11:48,139
<i>I can do less</i>

245
00:11:48,507 --> 00:11:50,275
<i>in how far I can go.</i>

246
00:11:50,277 --> 00:11:52,243
<i>Gets shorter and shorter.</i>

247
00:11:53,045 --> 00:11:55,180
<i>And I feel a short of breath</i>

248
00:11:55,182 --> 00:11:57,248
<i>before I can even make it
to the door.</i>

249
00:12:07,193 --> 00:12:09,761
<i>My wife understands that</i>

250
00:12:09,763 --> 00:12:12,964
sometimes I struggle
with the bad choices of food.

251
00:12:13,866 --> 00:12:14,999
Oh, we should get two of this.

252
00:12:15,001 --> 00:12:16,201
[Musa laughs]

253
00:12:16,836 --> 00:12:17,535
[Musa] No, just one.

254
00:12:18,237 --> 00:12:19,270
I'm taking...

255
00:12:19,272 --> 00:12:20,438
[Ontreon] No, you're not.

256
00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:22,307
[Musa] It's good for you, Tron.

257
00:12:22,309 --> 00:12:23,975
[Ontreon] You need
to put that back.

258
00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:25,677
We don't eat rabbit food.

259
00:12:25,679 --> 00:12:26,811
We're moving.

260
00:12:28,681 --> 00:12:31,783
<i>She's been watching out
and she wants me healthy.</i>

261
00:12:31,785 --> 00:12:33,785
<i>She wants me here for,
for a while</i>

262
00:12:33,787 --> 00:12:35,019
<i>and I understand that.</i>

263
00:12:35,888 --> 00:12:37,021
[Ontreon speaking]

264
00:12:39,291 --> 00:12:41,326
[Musa speaking]

265
00:12:45,097 --> 00:12:46,397
- The chair?
- Yeah.

266
00:13:01,313 --> 00:13:03,248
<i>[Ontreon] I, literally,
let my weight</i>

267
00:13:03,582 --> 00:13:05,150
<i>drag our lives down.</i>

268
00:13:05,551 --> 00:13:07,252
<i>Down to where I'm at now.</i>

269
00:13:07,887 --> 00:13:09,954
We never got a honeymoon.

270
00:13:09,956 --> 00:13:12,657
<i>Places that she wanna go
and I would like to go.</i>

271
00:13:12,659 --> 00:13:14,159
<i>She wanted to have children.</i>

272
00:13:14,161 --> 00:13:16,861
<i>We can't produce any right now
at this size.</i>

273
00:13:16,863 --> 00:13:18,963
<i>I feel, uh, frustrated</i>

274
00:13:18,965 --> 00:13:20,165
<i>and angry because,</i>

275
00:13:20,167 --> 00:13:22,367
<i>um, I can't provide
those things for her.</i>

276
00:13:22,369 --> 00:13:25,203
The best thing that I can do
is to get healthier

277
00:13:25,205 --> 00:13:27,038
the best way that I can.

278
00:13:28,974 --> 00:13:29,974
Baby, could you get the soda?

279
00:13:29,976 --> 00:13:31,176
[Musa grunts]

280
00:13:31,178 --> 00:13:33,111
Thank you, just set it...
Yeah, baby.

281
00:13:33,113 --> 00:13:35,079
You got the basket?

282
00:13:35,081 --> 00:13:36,815
- No, you take the whole basket.
- [Ontreon] Thank you, baby.

283
00:13:36,817 --> 00:13:39,184
- [Ontreon] Aw, you so sweet.
- Oh, please.

284
00:13:39,186 --> 00:13:41,152
[Ontreon]
That's a beautiful wife.

285
00:13:44,390 --> 00:13:46,224
- Run, Forrest.
- Woo.

286
00:13:46,226 --> 00:13:47,559
[Ontreon] Run, get in.

287
00:13:49,028 --> 00:13:51,162
[Musa speaking]

288
00:13:53,299 --> 00:13:54,365
[Ontreon] Ooh, baby.

289
00:13:54,967 --> 00:13:56,067
[Ontreon groans]

290
00:13:56,069 --> 00:13:57,135
[Musa speaking]

291
00:13:57,870 --> 00:13:58,570
[Ontreon] Yep.

292
00:13:58,572 --> 00:14:00,171
[Musa speaking]

293
00:14:02,675 --> 00:14:05,043
[thunder rumbling]

294
00:14:13,085 --> 00:14:15,587
<i>[Ontreon] Uh, ice cream?
Cookies and cream?</i>

295
00:14:16,755 --> 00:14:17,955
[Musa] Okay.

296
00:14:18,023 --> 00:14:21,025
Um, are you gonna want ketchup
or want a little bit more?

297
00:14:21,027 --> 00:14:22,327
[Ontreon] Of course,
I want ketchup.

298
00:14:24,230 --> 00:14:26,698
Cookies and cream.

299
00:14:26,700 --> 00:14:28,800
[Musa] Ice cream you're gonna
have it after you finish. Why don't--

300
00:14:28,802 --> 00:14:30,902
No, I want to get...
I want to have it now.

301
00:14:30,904 --> 00:14:33,805
- [Marsha] I'm not getting him ice cream.
- [Musa laughs]

302
00:14:33,807 --> 00:14:36,841
I will. [laughs]

303
00:14:36,843 --> 00:14:38,977
[Musa singing]
<i>♪ Take it easy. ♪</i>

304
00:14:39,745 --> 00:14:42,080
- What, really?
- [laughs]

305
00:14:42,082 --> 00:14:44,215
- We'll be fighting again...
- [Musa laughs]

306
00:14:44,217 --> 00:14:45,783
like cats and dogs.

307
00:14:45,785 --> 00:14:48,820
You want to bless the food
so that I can start eating?

308
00:14:48,822 --> 00:14:51,155
Lord, we thank you for allowing
us to make it through the day.

309
00:14:51,157 --> 00:14:55,026
We ask you to bless this food,
let it be nourishing to our bodies.

310
00:14:55,028 --> 00:14:56,094
In the name of Jesus. Amen.

311
00:14:56,096 --> 00:14:57,362
[Musa] Amen.

312
00:15:00,266 --> 00:15:02,734
<i>[Ontreon] Sometimes life
is very hard</i>

313
00:15:02,736 --> 00:15:05,036
<i>but as long as you have faith</i>

314
00:15:05,038 --> 00:15:06,938
<i>it's gonna come
right back around</i>

315
00:15:06,940 --> 00:15:08,473
<i>to something positive.</i>

316
00:15:09,308 --> 00:15:10,909
<i>Nothabo inspired me</i>

317
00:15:10,911 --> 00:15:13,378
<i>to enroll into an online school</i>

318
00:15:13,380 --> 00:15:16,114
<i>to get my license
to be a pastor.</i>

319
00:15:16,116 --> 00:15:18,149
<i>Learning more
about the word of God</i>

320
00:15:18,151 --> 00:15:20,785
<i>has been a way
to distract myself</i>

321
00:15:20,787 --> 00:15:22,553
<i>from my pain and depression.</i>

322
00:15:23,555 --> 00:15:25,690
<i>If I can make it through this,</i>

323
00:15:25,692 --> 00:15:27,859
<i>I want to help other people.</i>

324
00:15:27,861 --> 00:15:31,562
I'd love to see him be able
to stand over a pulpit,

325
00:15:31,564 --> 00:15:34,799
and preach the word that I
knew he would do in my stomach.

326
00:15:34,801 --> 00:15:36,634
<i>I'd love to see him
walk down the aisle</i>

327
00:15:36,636 --> 00:15:40,071
<i>with his bride and stand there.</i>

328
00:15:40,073 --> 00:15:43,741
<i>But Musa's thing is, "I need
you to stand there with me."</i>

329
00:15:43,743 --> 00:15:46,144
So she's saying no to a wedding

330
00:15:46,146 --> 00:15:47,979
and I understand it because

331
00:15:48,647 --> 00:15:51,416
<i>that's wedding you wanna be
able to stand,</i>

332
00:15:51,418 --> 00:15:54,585
<i>and if he could,
it wouldn't be very long.</i>

333
00:15:54,587 --> 00:15:57,889
<i>Those are the things I'd...
[stammers] I'd love to see for him,</i>

334
00:15:57,891 --> 00:16:00,058
<i>but first of all, his health.
It's the weight, of course.</i>

335
00:16:00,060 --> 00:16:02,060
Just getting it off.

336
00:16:02,861 --> 00:16:04,896
<i>[Ontreon] You know,
I do believe in God</i>

337
00:16:04,898 --> 00:16:07,065
<i>and I do have faith in Him,</i>

338
00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:12,003
<i>but right now, I don't
have the faith in myself.</i>

339
00:16:12,005 --> 00:16:14,572
<i>I've been feeling
that time is running out.</i>

340
00:16:15,908 --> 00:16:20,178
<i>So somewhere, I have to go
and find myself again,</i>

341
00:16:20,980 --> 00:16:23,147
<i>but I don't know
which way to go.</i>

342
00:16:29,922 --> 00:16:32,090
[slow instrumental
music playing]

343
00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:50,108
You gonna use this one?

344
00:16:50,110 --> 00:16:51,576
[Ontreon] Yeah,
we can use that one.

345
00:16:52,578 --> 00:16:53,778
[Musa] Okay.

346
00:16:55,180 --> 00:16:57,115
<i>[Ontreon] Today, me and Musa
are getting on the road</i>

347
00:16:57,117 --> 00:16:59,117
<i>to meet with Dr. Now</i>

348
00:16:59,119 --> 00:17:01,986
<i>and to see if I can get
his help to lose weight.</i>

349
00:17:01,988 --> 00:17:04,122
[Musa speaking]

350
00:17:07,593 --> 00:17:10,028
[Ontreon] What you trying
to say, my clothes are big?

351
00:17:10,030 --> 00:17:10,995
[Musa chuckles]

352
00:17:11,030 --> 00:17:12,997
Hmm.

353
00:17:12,999 --> 00:17:16,134
<i>[Ontreon] Everything else that
I've ever tried has never worked.</i>

354
00:17:19,104 --> 00:17:23,274
<i>And at this point, it feels
like I've tried about everything.</i>

355
00:17:23,276 --> 00:17:26,577
<i>So that means that Dr. Now
is basically my last hope.</i>

356
00:17:28,013 --> 00:17:29,981
Okay.

357
00:17:29,983 --> 00:17:32,383
- This...
- When did you get this?

358
00:17:33,185 --> 00:17:34,252
What are you talking about?

359
00:17:35,054 --> 00:17:36,287
This in my hand.

360
00:17:38,090 --> 00:17:39,223
[Ontreon] Baby, it's been there.

361
00:17:42,861 --> 00:17:44,128
[chuckles]

362
00:17:44,263 --> 00:17:45,463
All right.

363
00:17:48,901 --> 00:17:49,934
Huh?

364
00:17:49,936 --> 00:17:51,269
- You heard me.
<i>- No comprende.</i>

365
00:17:51,271 --> 00:17:52,470
[Musa] Mmm-hmm.

366
00:17:54,573 --> 00:17:56,541
- You ready?
- [Musa] I'm ready.

367
00:17:58,243 --> 00:18:00,011
You're gonna get
that one, right?

368
00:18:00,179 --> 00:18:01,279
[Ontreon] I guess.

369
00:18:01,580 --> 00:18:02,680
[Musa] Okay.

370
00:18:02,948 --> 00:18:04,415
- [Ontreon] I guess. [mumbling]
- I guess let's move.

371
00:18:05,684 --> 00:18:07,385
- [Ontreon] All right.
- [Musa] Mmm-hmm.

372
00:18:09,988 --> 00:18:13,191
[Ontreon] <i>It's about a
seven-hour drive to Houston,</i>

373
00:18:13,193 --> 00:18:17,195
<i>and I haven't ridden that far
in a car in a long time.</i>

374
00:18:19,565 --> 00:18:22,266
<i>So I know that it's
gonna be painful on me,</i>

375
00:18:22,268 --> 00:18:24,335
<i>and I'm not looking
forward to that.</i>

376
00:18:27,840 --> 00:18:28,906
[Musa] All right.

377
00:18:28,908 --> 00:18:31,042
<i>[Ontreon] I just know
that I need this help,</i>

378
00:18:31,044 --> 00:18:33,911
<i>and I don't have another plan
besides getting it.</i>

379
00:18:33,913 --> 00:18:36,414
- [Musa] I gave you the keys?
- [Ontreon] No, you got 'em.

380
00:18:36,416 --> 00:18:38,516
[slow instrumental
music playing]

381
00:18:52,264 --> 00:18:54,132
[car starting]

382
00:19:07,045 --> 00:19:09,046
[Ontreon speaking]

383
00:19:15,287 --> 00:19:16,854
Ooh.

384
00:19:16,856 --> 00:19:18,990
[Musa speaking]

385
00:19:26,231 --> 00:19:29,133
[Musa speaking]

386
00:19:29,135 --> 00:19:31,002
[groans] We'll just...
Baby, we'll--

387
00:19:31,004 --> 00:19:33,171
- [Musa] No, 'Treon.
- If we just start--

388
00:19:33,173 --> 00:19:34,805
- [Musa] No, no.
- We can start a few days after.

389
00:19:34,807 --> 00:19:36,107
[Musa] No.

390
00:19:53,926 --> 00:19:55,426
- [Ontreon] You ready?
- [Musa] Uh-huh.

391
00:19:55,428 --> 00:19:57,295
[Ontreon grunting]

392
00:20:04,870 --> 00:20:06,537
[Musa humming]

393
00:20:10,842 --> 00:20:11,976
[Musa] Are you okay?

394
00:20:14,413 --> 00:20:16,214
[Ontreon panting]

395
00:20:18,984 --> 00:20:20,218
[Musa] You good?

396
00:20:20,552 --> 00:20:21,953
[Ontreon] I'm hurting.

397
00:20:31,096 --> 00:20:33,331
[slow instrumental
music playing]

398
00:20:37,035 --> 00:20:38,769
<i>[Ontreon] I'm going
to see Dr. Now.</i>

399
00:20:38,771 --> 00:20:40,738
<i>We have a 12 o'clock
appointment,</i>

400
00:20:40,740 --> 00:20:44,375
<i>and so we're gonna see him
and talk to him and go from there.</i>

401
00:20:45,110 --> 00:20:47,511
<i>I don't know what
to expect, really.</i>

402
00:20:48,013 --> 00:20:50,114
<i>A little bit of nervousness.</i>

403
00:20:50,116 --> 00:20:51,882
<i>Probably a little bit
of anxiety there,</i>

404
00:20:51,884 --> 00:20:53,918
<i>but other than that, I'm good.</i>

405
00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:57,088
<i>I'm kinda happy to see
what he has to offer,</i>

406
00:20:57,856 --> 00:21:00,024
<i>see the process
and go from there.</i>

407
00:21:01,860 --> 00:21:04,395
- [Musa] Are you okay, babe?
- [Ontreon] Yep, I'm good.

408
00:21:05,063 --> 00:21:07,999
Why do you feel
good when I'm not? [laughs]

409
00:21:08,001 --> 00:21:09,934
[Ontreon] Oh... It's just
an appointment. It's...

410
00:21:09,936 --> 00:21:11,669
[Musa sighs]

411
00:21:11,671 --> 00:21:14,538
Do you have an idea what...
Are they going to talk about?

412
00:21:15,641 --> 00:21:18,743
[Ontreon] Yes, mainly, like,
the first appointments,

413
00:21:18,745 --> 00:21:22,079
- usually go over the medical history...
- [Musa] Mmm-hmm.

414
00:21:22,081 --> 00:21:25,950
[Ontreon] They gotta pull, you know,
medical records and stuff like that.

415
00:21:26,852 --> 00:21:29,920
It's not gonna be
nothing too serious.

416
00:21:29,922 --> 00:21:32,023
[Musa] I think, 'Treon,
you should prepare yourself.

417
00:21:32,025 --> 00:21:33,924
I think you expect the way...

418
00:21:33,926 --> 00:21:36,160
Just because you've
been to so many doctors,

419
00:21:36,162 --> 00:21:39,196
you think this is
gonna be like this,

420
00:21:39,198 --> 00:21:41,098
but what if it's
gonna be like that?

421
00:21:41,100 --> 00:21:43,134
- [Ontreon] Like what?
- I don't know!

422
00:21:43,136 --> 00:21:44,702
[Ontreon] Well, I mean,

423
00:21:44,704 --> 00:21:47,905
it's not like he's gonna be
preparing for me for surgery today.

424
00:21:47,907 --> 00:21:51,976
Like, as in scheduling a...
[stammers] A surgery date.

425
00:21:51,978 --> 00:21:54,245
We gotta see
what he's gonna say.

426
00:21:54,247 --> 00:21:56,580
[Musa] Ooh!
[speaking indistinctly]

427
00:22:04,389 --> 00:22:06,123
[Ontreon grunts]

428
00:22:06,191 --> 00:22:07,525
Okay.

429
00:22:09,261 --> 00:22:10,428
[Ontreon groaning]

430
00:22:13,198 --> 00:22:14,365
Yeah.

431
00:22:14,866 --> 00:22:17,635
[breathing heavily]

432
00:22:17,637 --> 00:22:20,271
<i>It was a long day
of driving yesterday.</i>

433
00:22:25,277 --> 00:22:27,378
<i>And today's the day
to find out what I weigh.</i>

434
00:22:28,080 --> 00:22:30,948
As much that I wanna
use that cane...

435
00:22:30,950 --> 00:22:33,117
[slow instrumental
music playing]

436
00:22:39,458 --> 00:22:41,158
[Musa] You can sit there.

437
00:22:49,101 --> 00:22:50,234
Ontreon?

438
00:22:51,870 --> 00:22:53,404
[Ontreon groans]

439
00:22:54,172 --> 00:22:57,108
- [Musa] Doing good.
- [Ontreon] Hmm?

440
00:22:57,110 --> 00:23:00,478
- [Musa] Doing good.
- [Ontreon] All the way, right?

441
00:23:02,714 --> 00:23:05,549
<i>The scale has
never been my friend,</i>

442
00:23:05,551 --> 00:23:08,152
<i>so it's no wonder
I hate this part.</i>

443
00:23:09,755 --> 00:23:12,022
[nurse] Okay, you wanna
step up on the scale?

444
00:23:14,092 --> 00:23:16,394
<i>[Ontreon] At best, it's
a number I don't wanna see.</i>

445
00:23:17,562 --> 00:23:20,030
<i>At worst, it's like
a death sentence.</i>

446
00:23:26,571 --> 00:23:28,472
[suspenseful music playing]

447
00:23:33,211 --> 00:23:35,112
<i>[Ontreon] Here we are
at Dr. Now's clinic,</i>

448
00:23:35,114 --> 00:23:36,814
<i>and I'm ready to get weighed</i>

449
00:23:36,816 --> 00:23:39,950
<i>for the first time
in quite a while.</i>

450
00:23:39,952 --> 00:23:42,620
<i>My only hope is that
my weight hasn't gotten</i>

451
00:23:42,622 --> 00:23:44,155
<i>so far out of control</i>

452
00:23:44,157 --> 00:23:46,590
<i>that Dr. Now won't even
agree to help me.</i>

453
00:23:47,692 --> 00:23:50,194
<i>I'm just hoping
that I'm in the 600s.</i>

454
00:23:53,064 --> 00:23:55,299
- Your weight is 702.
- [Ontreon] All right.

455
00:23:56,735 --> 00:23:59,570
<i>Oof, that's a lot.</i>

456
00:23:59,572 --> 00:24:02,039
Okay, we're gonna be
going to Room Five.

457
00:24:02,041 --> 00:24:05,042
Okay. Let me sit down.

458
00:24:05,044 --> 00:24:08,145
[breathless] You gotta
get the... The door, baby.

459
00:24:08,513 --> 00:24:09,713
Oh.

460
00:24:12,551 --> 00:24:14,885
<i>I don't know what
Dr. Now's gonna say to me,</i>

461
00:24:14,887 --> 00:24:16,954
<i>but I'm sure he won't be happy.</i>

462
00:24:18,890 --> 00:24:21,258
- [speaking indistinctly]
- Hmm?

463
00:24:21,260 --> 00:24:22,426
[knock at door]

464
00:24:25,664 --> 00:24:27,097
Hello, how y'all doing?

465
00:24:27,099 --> 00:24:28,432
- Good. How are you?
- Good, and you?

466
00:24:28,434 --> 00:24:29,533
Good.

467
00:24:29,935 --> 00:24:31,769
So, Ontreon,

468
00:24:31,771 --> 00:24:33,204
who's this young lady with you?

469
00:24:33,206 --> 00:24:35,840
Uh, this is, uh...
This is my wife.

470
00:24:35,842 --> 00:24:39,076
- Well, good to meet you both.
- Yeah.

471
00:24:39,078 --> 00:24:42,580
All right, so what brought
you down to Houston?

472
00:24:42,582 --> 00:24:45,115
Um, to... To try to get
help on...

473
00:24:45,117 --> 00:24:47,117
On losing weight that I just...

474
00:24:47,119 --> 00:24:49,186
I'm having too much
of a hard time to even,

475
00:24:49,321 --> 00:24:51,088
uh, get it off.

476
00:24:51,556 --> 00:24:54,091
So, you are right now, uh,

477
00:24:54,259 --> 00:24:55,793
702.

478
00:24:55,795 --> 00:24:59,296
And that is about a BMI

479
00:24:59,298 --> 00:25:01,398
of, um, almost 100, huh?

480
00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:03,000
Yeah. Yeah.

481
00:25:03,201 --> 00:25:07,104
All right, so what seems to be
the issue with your eating habit?

482
00:25:08,006 --> 00:25:09,807
Um, it's...

483
00:25:09,809 --> 00:25:11,842
It's not the best. Um,

484
00:25:11,844 --> 00:25:14,111
I do eat a lot of,
um, uh, fast food

485
00:25:14,113 --> 00:25:15,279
and I eat a lot of sweets.

486
00:25:15,281 --> 00:25:16,413
Those are the two...

487
00:25:16,982 --> 00:25:18,816
Uh, two main things that,

488
00:25:18,818 --> 00:25:22,987
I guess, that... That
keeps me, um, overweight.

489
00:25:22,989 --> 00:25:25,089
You eat a lot of sweets
and fast food?

490
00:25:25,091 --> 00:25:26,156
Yes, yeah.

491
00:25:26,158 --> 00:25:29,026
So if you do that,
you're gonna be 700 pounds.

492
00:25:29,028 --> 00:25:32,196
So what are you willing
to do to change that?

493
00:25:33,031 --> 00:25:35,065
I... [chuckles] I don't...

494
00:25:35,067 --> 00:25:37,234
I don't know. I did make
a promise to, uh...

495
00:25:37,236 --> 00:25:39,036
To my wife that...

496
00:25:39,038 --> 00:25:41,338
[stammers] That I'm gonna
cut out fast foods.

497
00:25:41,773 --> 00:25:43,941
Um, that, um,

498
00:25:43,943 --> 00:25:46,343
pretty much, we're going to...

499
00:25:46,345 --> 00:25:49,880
To do a diet plan
and we're gonna stick to it,

500
00:25:49,882 --> 00:25:52,483
and to eat at home, and...

501
00:25:53,251 --> 00:25:55,753
And that... And I
should see results.

502
00:25:55,755 --> 00:25:57,555
- Let me ask you this.
- [Ontreon] Mmm-hmm.

503
00:25:57,557 --> 00:25:59,590
What is your goal
right now in your life?

504
00:26:00,058 --> 00:26:03,060
My main goal is to...

505
00:26:03,062 --> 00:26:07,064
I started studying, um,
in a school of ministry,

506
00:26:07,066 --> 00:26:10,734
so, at some point,
I do want to, like,

507
00:26:10,736 --> 00:26:13,103
uh, minister, or...

508
00:26:13,105 --> 00:26:15,539
Or a pastor,
or something of that sort.

509
00:26:15,541 --> 00:26:17,241
So I do wanna do that,

510
00:26:17,243 --> 00:26:19,476
because she can't
continue to just...

511
00:26:19,478 --> 00:26:21,579
Just be the only one that's,

512
00:26:21,581 --> 00:26:25,649
you know, working and... And
bringing in as much as she brings in, so...

513
00:26:25,651 --> 00:26:27,084
Okay.

514
00:26:27,086 --> 00:26:30,220
What do you have to say
about all the stuff he told me?

515
00:26:30,722 --> 00:26:32,590
I feel like, uh,

516
00:26:32,592 --> 00:26:34,692
it's not the first time
that I've heard him say

517
00:26:34,694 --> 00:26:37,895
he wants to work,
he wants to provide.

518
00:26:37,897 --> 00:26:39,463
You know, I've heard
him say that for...

519
00:26:39,798 --> 00:26:41,899
For, like...

520
00:26:41,901 --> 00:26:44,935
- two years.
- Well, you know, words mean nothing.

521
00:26:44,937 --> 00:26:47,071
- [Musa] Actions, yes.
- The action speaks very loud.

522
00:26:47,073 --> 00:26:49,540
Are you supporting him
to be healthy

523
00:26:49,542 --> 00:26:52,276
or are you enabling him
to overeat?

524
00:26:52,278 --> 00:26:57,114
Uh, I've tried and, uh, today,
he made a promise to me

525
00:26:57,116 --> 00:26:59,049
that we're gonna follow

526
00:26:59,117 --> 00:27:01,352
a plan, right?

527
00:27:01,354 --> 00:27:04,321
All right, so tell me
what's different today

528
00:27:04,323 --> 00:27:06,890
than last 36 years?

529
00:27:06,892 --> 00:27:08,292
So what are you willing to do

530
00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:10,060
and what are you
gonna do different?

531
00:27:11,763 --> 00:27:12,896
Um,

532
00:27:12,898 --> 00:27:15,032
I don't know. [stammering]

533
00:27:15,034 --> 00:27:18,135
I don't know exactly
what I'm gonna do different,

534
00:27:18,137 --> 00:27:20,170
but I know that there's
something that has to...

535
00:27:20,172 --> 00:27:21,905
Has to change.

536
00:27:21,907 --> 00:27:25,643
Um, I'm gonna have
to give up the... [stammers]

537
00:27:25,645 --> 00:27:28,112
At least the fast foods
and the sweets.

538
00:27:28,114 --> 00:27:31,281
Um, that's something that's
gonna have to take place,

539
00:27:31,283 --> 00:27:33,984
um, and it's, you know...
[stammers] I don't think that

540
00:27:33,986 --> 00:27:36,086
that's gonna fix the problem,

541
00:27:36,088 --> 00:27:39,823
but that's at least... [stammers]
It's gonna be a good start,

542
00:27:39,825 --> 00:27:42,259
but it's not gonna
be easy for me, though.

543
00:27:42,261 --> 00:27:44,628
It's... It's definitely
gonna be a challenge.

544
00:27:44,630 --> 00:27:46,163
[Dr. Now] I agree
with all that,

545
00:27:46,165 --> 00:27:50,167
but the first step is you showing
that you are willing to do what you say,

546
00:27:50,169 --> 00:27:53,904
because it sounds like
you said all this before,

547
00:27:53,906 --> 00:27:57,141
and so far, it seems like
you go in the other direction.

548
00:27:57,143 --> 00:27:58,242
- Mmm-hmm.
- [Dr. Now] Okay?

549
00:27:58,244 --> 00:28:00,210
So to get you started,

550
00:28:00,212 --> 00:28:02,846
I'm gonna give you
1,200-calorie diet

551
00:28:02,848 --> 00:28:05,149
that is high protein, low carb.

552
00:28:05,151 --> 00:28:06,417
I'm gonna walk you through it,

553
00:28:06,419 --> 00:28:09,053
and I want you
to start that immediately.

554
00:28:09,055 --> 00:28:10,220
Yes, sir.

555
00:28:10,222 --> 00:28:13,857
And then I'm gonna also
give you some exercises

556
00:28:13,859 --> 00:28:16,126
to start doing twice a day.

557
00:28:16,128 --> 00:28:17,995
- All right.
- You need to increase your activity,

558
00:28:17,997 --> 00:28:20,531
so you need to do
all those things

559
00:28:20,533 --> 00:28:23,167
and start making
the changes you need now.

560
00:28:23,169 --> 00:28:26,303
- You need to be proactive to change your life.
- I will.

561
00:28:26,305 --> 00:28:29,173
So we're not gonna be able
to do any of that for you.

562
00:28:29,175 --> 00:28:31,842
You are the one
that can do that.

563
00:28:31,844 --> 00:28:33,043
-All right.
-[Dr. Now] You understand that?

564
00:28:33,045 --> 00:28:33,977
- I do.
- [Dr. Now] Okay.

565
00:28:33,979 --> 00:28:36,280
Now let me go get
some stuff for you.

566
00:28:36,282 --> 00:28:38,482
[Ontreon] Okay. [muttering]
Oh, that wasn't so hard.

567
00:28:42,253 --> 00:28:44,021
They're okay.

568
00:28:51,329 --> 00:28:52,463
- Yeah, I know.
- [Musa sniffs]

569
00:29:01,172 --> 00:29:02,506
Yeah, I hear you.

570
00:29:03,742 --> 00:29:07,745
It sounds like Ontreon has
had opportunity to get help

571
00:29:07,747 --> 00:29:09,546
with his weight in the past,

572
00:29:09,548 --> 00:29:12,750
<i>and what's concerning me
is that aside from</i>

573
00:29:12,752 --> 00:29:14,818
<i>a brief period in his 20s,</i>

574
00:29:14,820 --> 00:29:17,221
<i>there hasn't been a time
where he has made</i>

575
00:29:17,223 --> 00:29:18,822
any significant difference

576
00:29:18,824 --> 00:29:20,724
<i>to change his situation.</i>

577
00:29:20,726 --> 00:29:22,593
<i>So I have a big question about</i>

578
00:29:22,595 --> 00:29:24,928
his level of
commitment right now,

579
00:29:24,930 --> 00:29:27,664
<i>because the impression
I'm getting is that</i>

580
00:29:27,666 --> 00:29:30,134
<i>he's here for a magic solution,</i>

581
00:29:30,136 --> 00:29:33,937
and that he's not willing
to put in the work he needs

582
00:29:33,939 --> 00:29:35,506
<i>to turn his life around.</i>

583
00:29:38,042 --> 00:29:39,009
All right.

584
00:29:39,011 --> 00:29:43,247
This is what I want you
to read every night,

585
00:29:44,082 --> 00:29:46,717
so at the end of the day...

586
00:29:46,719 --> 00:29:50,587
If Ontreon is serious about
taking control of his life,

587
00:29:50,589 --> 00:29:54,424
<i>then he needs to show that
to me by losing enough weight</i>

588
00:29:54,426 --> 00:29:57,027
to hit the goal
I'm gonna give to him.

589
00:29:57,029 --> 00:29:59,563
<i>If he does that,
then I will believe</i>

590
00:29:59,565 --> 00:30:01,231
he's ready to do what he says,

591
00:30:01,233 --> 00:30:04,234
<i>and putting in the hard work
to change his life</i>

592
00:30:04,236 --> 00:30:06,703
<i>so we can move ahead with him.</i>

593
00:30:06,705 --> 00:30:09,106
<i>But if he's doing
what he's always done,</i>

594
00:30:09,108 --> 00:30:12,709
<i>hoping someone fixes
his situation for him,</i>

595
00:30:12,711 --> 00:30:16,680
then there'll be nothing we
can do to help him that will last,

596
00:30:16,682 --> 00:30:19,683
<i>and we won't be
moving ahead with him.</i>

597
00:30:19,685 --> 00:30:24,054
So where we go from here
with Ontreon is all up to him.

598
00:30:24,056 --> 00:30:27,024
This is... What it's
saying on top?

599
00:30:27,559 --> 00:30:29,092
"I really don't eat very much--"

600
00:30:29,094 --> 00:30:32,095
All right, and this is
the page you need to read

601
00:30:32,097 --> 00:30:33,864
to understand that
you're eating too much.

602
00:30:33,866 --> 00:30:35,365
- Okay.
- Okay.

603
00:30:35,367 --> 00:30:38,402
- Okay.
- [Dr. Now] And also, I'm gonna give you my book.

604
00:30:38,703 --> 00:30:39,570
Oh, wow.

605
00:30:39,572 --> 00:30:42,105
And it's gonna be
what you need to do.

606
00:30:42,107 --> 00:30:45,809
- Okay.
- If you stick with this diet, then do that.

607
00:30:45,811 --> 00:30:47,878
Being at 700 pounds,

608
00:30:47,880 --> 00:30:50,614
you could easily lose
60 pounds in one month.

609
00:30:50,616 --> 00:30:51,782
[Ontreon] Okay.

610
00:30:51,784 --> 00:30:54,218
[Dr. Now] Okay? But what I'm
gonna give you as a goal

611
00:30:54,220 --> 00:30:57,020
is to lose 80 pounds
in two months.

612
00:30:57,022 --> 00:30:59,957
If you cut the sugary stuff
and all that,

613
00:30:59,959 --> 00:31:02,092
- you can easily lose more than that.
- [Ontreon] Okay.

614
00:31:02,094 --> 00:31:04,928
[Dr. Now] But minimum,
80 pounds in two months,

615
00:31:04,930 --> 00:31:08,665
- and if you do that, then we can work with you.
- Okay.

616
00:31:08,667 --> 00:31:10,367
And if you're not
able to do that,

617
00:31:10,369 --> 00:31:12,269
there's nothing anybody
can do for you.

618
00:31:12,804 --> 00:31:13,804
- Okay.
- Okay?

619
00:31:13,806 --> 00:31:15,105
All right, Ontreon,

620
00:31:15,107 --> 00:31:18,675
so I'm gonna see you in two
months, 80 pounds lighter.

621
00:31:18,677 --> 00:31:20,444
- Okay.
- [Dr. Now] Okay?

622
00:31:20,446 --> 00:31:22,112
- Mmm-hmm.
- So you think you can do that?

623
00:31:22,480 --> 00:31:24,348
I'll do my best.

624
00:31:24,350 --> 00:31:27,951
- All right, if you need anything, give me a call.
- [Ontreon] Okay, I will.

625
00:31:27,953 --> 00:31:29,853
- And thank you so very much.
- [Dr. Now] You're welcome.

626
00:31:29,855 --> 00:31:31,188
Thank you.

627
00:31:36,961 --> 00:31:39,096
- You get the door, baby.
- All righty.

628
00:31:41,032 --> 00:31:43,834
- Let's go.
- Okay.

629
00:31:43,836 --> 00:31:47,337
<i>[Ontreon] I wasn't sure what
to expect from this appointment.</i>

630
00:31:47,339 --> 00:31:50,040
<i>I didn't know if Dr. Now
would even help me.</i>

631
00:31:50,042 --> 00:31:52,142
<i>But now that I met him,</i>

632
00:31:52,144 --> 00:31:55,245
<i>I understand that he just
wants the best for me.</i>

633
00:31:55,546 --> 00:31:58,215
<i>So I can't blame him for that.</i>

634
00:31:58,217 --> 00:32:02,386
<i>But I'm also not sure that I can
do what he's asking me to do.</i>

635
00:32:03,087 --> 00:32:05,055
<i>He made it sound so easy.</i>

636
00:32:05,057 --> 00:32:08,225
<i>But he's dealing with
a lifetime of habit forming.</i>

637
00:32:08,726 --> 00:32:10,827
<i>It's hard to change that.</i>

638
00:32:10,829 --> 00:32:13,830
<i>But I know that my wife
needs me to do this.</i>

639
00:32:13,832 --> 00:32:17,968
<i>I wanna do it, too,
and give it my best try.</i>

640
00:32:17,970 --> 00:32:20,270
<i>And I'm gonna hope and pray
that that's good enough.</i>

641
00:32:27,912 --> 00:32:30,948
[upbeat music playing]

642
00:32:39,691 --> 00:32:43,160
<i>[Ontreon] It's been almost a month
since my appointment with Dr. Now.</i>

643
00:32:44,462 --> 00:32:47,965
<i>So far, it's been a struggle
to do the right thing.</i>

644
00:32:47,967 --> 00:32:52,569
<i>The biggest challenges have
been finding things I still like to eat.</i>

645
00:32:52,571 --> 00:32:55,839
<i>Because I'm already eating
such a small amount,</i>

646
00:32:55,841 --> 00:32:59,743
<i>that what I do eat needs to be
things that I like,</i>

647
00:32:59,745 --> 00:33:02,913
<i>and that I know that
I'm gonna eat.</i>

648
00:33:02,915 --> 00:33:07,584
<i>And so, following the diet
the best way that I can.</i>

649
00:33:07,586 --> 00:33:11,321
<i>And I find that, you know, I
have days where all I do need</i>

650
00:33:11,323 --> 00:33:13,590
<i>is a protein shake</i>

651
00:33:13,592 --> 00:33:16,293
<i>or something like that, and...</i>

652
00:33:16,295 --> 00:33:20,230
<i>My wife has mentioned
that protein shakes</i>

653
00:33:20,232 --> 00:33:21,431
<i>are not on the diet.</i>

654
00:33:24,002 --> 00:33:27,170
<i>But, basically, the way
I'm looking at it is...</i>

655
00:33:27,172 --> 00:33:30,741
<i>That I need to make things
easier for myself right now.</i>

656
00:33:30,743 --> 00:33:33,010
<i>Because it's hard
enough already.</i>

657
00:33:54,866 --> 00:33:59,536
<i>So far, the diet and exercise
program has been going hot and cold.</i>

658
00:34:01,239 --> 00:34:02,973
<i>But I'm still doing my best.</i>

659
00:34:02,975 --> 00:34:04,941
[groans softly]

660
00:34:08,880 --> 00:34:10,747
<i>My wife Musa
has been really helpful</i>

661
00:34:10,749 --> 00:34:12,983
<i>to give me the right things.</i>

662
00:34:12,985 --> 00:34:17,254
<i>Encouraging me and
staying on top of it with me.</i>

663
00:34:17,256 --> 00:34:20,290
<i>She's even been reading
the materials more than I have.</i>

664
00:34:21,492 --> 00:34:23,026
<i>And for the exercising,</i>

665
00:34:23,028 --> 00:34:25,762
<i>I haven't really done
much of that yet.</i>

666
00:34:25,764 --> 00:34:27,864
<i>But today, I'm going to change
all of that.</i>

667
00:34:27,866 --> 00:34:29,866
<i>Because I'm working out
with a friend of mine,</i>

668
00:34:29,868 --> 00:34:31,968
<i>Charles, who is a trainer.</i>

669
00:34:35,673 --> 00:34:38,708
- So we doing the easy day today? Oh, no.
- [laughs]

670
00:34:38,710 --> 00:34:42,145
We got work to do. Let's
go. Turn it off. Let's roll.

671
00:34:42,147 --> 00:34:46,249
See, today we're supposed to go
easy, supposed to be a light day.

672
00:34:46,251 --> 00:34:48,418
-There's no such thing. Let's go.
-[laughs]

673
00:34:50,354 --> 00:34:54,291
<i>I wanted to wait until Charles
was available to do my first workout.</i>

674
00:34:54,293 --> 00:34:56,660
<i>Because I knew he was going
to make it more fun for me.</i>

675
00:34:56,662 --> 00:34:58,395
All right, you're pulling that.

676
00:34:58,397 --> 00:35:02,299
- Charles, let's cut across this grass real quick.
- [laughs]

677
00:35:02,301 --> 00:35:04,601
I'll pave it the whole way
so let's go.

678
00:35:05,336 --> 00:35:07,137
Charles, that's a long way.

679
00:35:07,438 --> 00:35:09,172
Let's go.

680
00:35:09,174 --> 00:35:11,942
<i>[Ontreon] If I didn't have somebody
like Charles to do it with me,</i>

681
00:35:11,944 --> 00:35:14,911
<i>it was gonna make it
a lot harder.</i>

682
00:35:14,913 --> 00:35:17,214
<i>The one thing that I know
that I'm not gonna like about this</i>

683
00:35:17,216 --> 00:35:20,784
<i>is Charles is gonna make me
go longer than I want to.</i>

684
00:35:20,786 --> 00:35:22,853
[Charles] We could
go around the whole lake.

685
00:35:22,855 --> 00:35:25,322
- No, no, no, you crazy. [laughs]
- Okay, okay. I'm just saying.

686
00:35:25,324 --> 00:35:27,457
Hey, that's a good looking
incline. You got one more.

687
00:35:29,127 --> 00:35:30,861
I'm gonna go to this corner.

688
00:35:30,863 --> 00:35:31,895
- Right here.
- Corner?

689
00:35:31,897 --> 00:35:32,762
Yup. So come on.

690
00:35:32,764 --> 00:35:35,265
[panting]

691
00:35:39,437 --> 00:35:40,937
- Don't be so eager to sit.
- [laughs]

692
00:35:40,939 --> 00:35:43,340
- That's the fastest you've moved all morning.
- [coughs]

693
00:35:43,342 --> 00:35:45,075
Huh? All right,
we're gonna need this.

694
00:35:45,077 --> 00:35:46,343
Let me move this out of the way.

695
00:35:47,078 --> 00:35:48,278
All right. So...

696
00:35:49,046 --> 00:35:50,947
Now you gotta sit and work.

697
00:35:50,949 --> 00:35:53,583
All right, so we're taking this
ball, you press it above your head.

698
00:35:53,585 --> 00:35:56,019
All right, here we go.
Keep pressing it straight up.

699
00:35:56,021 --> 00:35:58,588
Here we go. Three, two, one.
Here we go. One.

700
00:35:59,357 --> 00:36:02,225
Slow. Two. Three.

701
00:36:03,027 --> 00:36:05,162
Four. Five.

702
00:36:06,063 --> 00:36:08,064
Six. Seven.

703
00:36:09,066 --> 00:36:11,034
Eight. Nine.

704
00:36:11,903 --> 00:36:13,770
Ten. Nice.

705
00:36:13,772 --> 00:36:16,173
Nice. All right, on your feet,
here we go, we're kicking.

706
00:36:16,175 --> 00:36:18,575
On three, here we go.
Lift, one.

707
00:36:20,244 --> 00:36:21,244
Two.

708
00:36:22,079 --> 00:36:23,079
Three.

709
00:36:23,948 --> 00:36:25,115
Four.

710
00:36:25,883 --> 00:36:28,018
Five. All right, stand up.

711
00:36:29,220 --> 00:36:31,021
I'm not no Samson.

712
00:36:31,023 --> 00:36:33,089
[both laugh]

713
00:36:33,091 --> 00:36:36,526
Come on, Samson. Come
forward. All right, see right here?

714
00:36:37,395 --> 00:36:38,562
So you're gonna press like this.

715
00:36:39,463 --> 00:36:40,463
One.

716
00:36:41,365 --> 00:36:42,465
Two.

717
00:36:43,868 --> 00:36:44,935
Three. That's it.

718
00:36:45,970 --> 00:36:47,003
Four.

719
00:36:47,605 --> 00:36:48,771
Five. All right.

720
00:36:49,140 --> 00:36:50,674
You can come sit down, but
you're not gonna stay down.

721
00:36:50,676 --> 00:36:52,175
You finish practice standing up.

722
00:36:53,177 --> 00:36:54,511
So, yeah,
we're gonna sit and stand.

723
00:36:55,146 --> 00:36:59,115
Three, two, one.
Rock... Stand.

724
00:36:59,984 --> 00:37:01,551
One. All right,
we'll go back down.

725
00:37:01,986 --> 00:37:04,354
That's one.

726
00:37:04,356 --> 00:37:07,157
-That's two. Okay, no hands. [laughing] All right.
-[laughs]

727
00:37:07,159 --> 00:37:08,291
And down.

728
00:37:09,827 --> 00:37:11,027
That's four.

729
00:37:11,562 --> 00:37:12,996
All right, hold that.
That's good.

730
00:37:13,364 --> 00:37:15,899
Three, two, one.

731
00:37:15,901 --> 00:37:18,535
That's up. That's five. All
right, stay right there. Hands up.

732
00:37:19,537 --> 00:37:21,571
Now we're gonna lean
slightly this way.

733
00:37:21,573 --> 00:37:26,042
-[chuckles] -One, two,
three, four, five. Same thing.

734
00:37:26,210 --> 00:37:30,080
One, two, three, four, five.

735
00:37:30,082 --> 00:37:31,514
All right, we're going
back down. Here we go.

736
00:37:32,817 --> 00:37:34,884
Right, let's go.
We can head back.

737
00:37:34,886 --> 00:37:36,853
-Up. Give me this and get up. Here we go. Up!
-Really?

738
00:37:36,855 --> 00:37:38,655
On your feet, let's go.

739
00:37:38,657 --> 00:37:40,590
Or you're gonna owe me
a lap around this lake.

740
00:37:40,592 --> 00:37:42,726
- Uh-uh. No, we ain't can't do no lap.
- Huh?

741
00:37:42,728 --> 00:37:46,029
Three, two, one. Let's rock.

742
00:37:46,964 --> 00:37:49,232
You know, we're schooling
your feet. We walking.

743
00:37:49,234 --> 00:37:52,802
We're gonna leave the belly.
This thing ain't got a chance.

744
00:37:52,804 --> 00:37:54,571
- Let's go. Pick them up.
- [laughs]

745
00:37:54,573 --> 00:37:56,706
- Let's go. Nope.
- Slow.

746
00:37:56,708 --> 00:38:00,043
- And when we get halfway I'm giving you this ball.
- No, no, no, no, no.

747
00:38:00,845 --> 00:38:02,946
<i>[Ontreon] You know,
that wasn't so bad</i>

748
00:38:02,948 --> 00:38:05,615
<i>moving my body all those ways.</i>

749
00:38:05,617 --> 00:38:07,817
<i>When you haven't
worked out in so long,</i>

750
00:38:07,819 --> 00:38:11,154
<i>it helps to remind you
how out of shape you are.</i>

751
00:38:11,689 --> 00:38:13,757
That's it. Come on.

752
00:38:13,759 --> 00:38:16,660
<i>[Ontreon] For me right now,
there's a bit of shame.</i>

753
00:38:16,662 --> 00:38:20,263
<i>Shame and regret that
I let myself get like this.</i>

754
00:38:20,265 --> 00:38:22,599
<i>Because it feels like
I have so far to go.</i>

755
00:38:24,201 --> 00:38:25,935
Not too shabby, sir.

756
00:38:27,171 --> 00:38:28,305
How you feel?

757
00:38:28,307 --> 00:38:32,075
- [panting] - Ha. I
think I've done my part.

758
00:38:34,178 --> 00:38:35,211
Sir, every day.

759
00:38:35,213 --> 00:38:37,747
- [panting]
- Huh?

760
00:38:37,749 --> 00:38:39,983
- I hear you, Charles.
- Huh? Don't try to squeeze my hand!

761
00:38:39,985 --> 00:38:41,751
- [laughs] If I gotta sit down.
- All right.

762
00:38:41,753 --> 00:38:45,822
"If I gotta sit down."
[laughs]

763
00:38:45,824 --> 00:38:48,124
<i>[Ontreon] I guess I'll just
take it one day at a time.</i>

764
00:38:48,126 --> 00:38:50,160
<i>That's all I really can do.</i>

765
00:38:52,129 --> 00:38:53,363
[breathing heavily] Ugh.

766
00:38:56,100 --> 00:38:58,134
[slow instrumental
music playing]

767
00:39:02,139 --> 00:39:04,574
[Musa] How are
you feeling on how you did?

768
00:39:04,576 --> 00:39:08,044
Man, I'm nervous. You know,
he wanted me to lose 60.

769
00:39:08,046 --> 00:39:08,978
[Musa] Oh.

770
00:39:09,947 --> 00:39:12,916
Babe, I don't know
if I came even close.

771
00:39:12,918 --> 00:39:14,584
I don't think I did, you know.

772
00:39:14,586 --> 00:39:17,554
[Musa] You've been
doing the diet.

773
00:39:18,589 --> 00:39:19,823
Yeah.

774
00:39:19,825 --> 00:39:21,858
Yeah, and the other things
we just have to clear up

775
00:39:21,860 --> 00:39:23,960
with them about the shakes.

776
00:39:23,962 --> 00:39:27,230
Because I told you shakes, no.
But you said the books said yes.

777
00:39:27,232 --> 00:39:29,265
It's like we're understanding
it in a different way.

778
00:39:29,267 --> 00:39:30,934
All right.

779
00:39:30,936 --> 00:39:32,235
Yeah, because
at the end of the day

780
00:39:32,237 --> 00:39:34,838
we say different things,
it doesn't help.

781
00:39:34,840 --> 00:39:36,272
[Ontreon] I hear you, baby.

782
00:39:41,312 --> 00:39:43,046
All right, let's go, baby.

783
00:39:56,260 --> 00:39:57,961
Hmm?

784
00:40:00,231 --> 00:40:02,999
So now, not enough of them.

785
00:40:04,735 --> 00:40:06,603
Ontreon?

786
00:40:06,605 --> 00:40:09,506
<i>[Ontreon] Today's the day of
my first follow-up with Dr. Now.</i>

787
00:40:10,775 --> 00:40:14,144
<i>I have to say I'm not looking
forward to stepping on that scale.</i>

788
00:40:14,146 --> 00:40:16,980
- [nurse] All right, you can step on the scale.
- Okay.

789
00:40:16,982 --> 00:40:19,015
<i>[Ontreon] So no matter what
that scale says,</i>

790
00:40:19,017 --> 00:40:22,485
<i>I just pray that Dr. Now
can help me find some hope.</i>

791
00:40:25,589 --> 00:40:28,057
<i>Because I'm not ready
to just give up yet.</i>

792
00:40:37,067 --> 00:40:39,402
[suspenseful music playing]

793
00:40:43,574 --> 00:40:46,242
<i>[Ontreon] We're here at
Dr. Now's for my first follow-up.</i>

794
00:40:47,044 --> 00:40:48,611
<i>And my first
doctor's appointment</i>

795
00:40:48,613 --> 00:40:51,815
<i>I weighed in at 702 pounds.</i>

796
00:40:51,817 --> 00:40:55,418
<i>Dr. Now told me to lose
80 pounds in two months.</i>

797
00:40:56,420 --> 00:41:00,356
<i>So if I did that I would weigh
622 pounds today.</i>

798
00:41:07,565 --> 00:41:10,333
- Your weight is 683.
- [Ontreon] All right.

799
00:41:12,102 --> 00:41:14,070
<i>At least I lost something.</i>

800
00:41:14,705 --> 00:41:17,106
<i>But I guess I saw that coming.</i>

801
00:41:17,108 --> 00:41:19,075
- [laughing] - [nurse]
You can go to Room Five.

802
00:41:20,277 --> 00:41:23,046
Not even close,
but that's okay. [chuckles]

803
00:41:27,585 --> 00:41:29,319
[Musa laughs,
speaking indistinctly]

804
00:41:35,593 --> 00:41:39,562
- [speaking indistinctly] -
We're doing running now, but...

805
00:41:39,564 --> 00:41:41,197
[knocking at door]

806
00:41:44,068 --> 00:41:45,768
Hello, how are we all doing?

807
00:41:45,770 --> 00:41:49,873
- Good. How are you doing?
- Good.

808
00:41:49,875 --> 00:41:53,376
All right, uh, so, Ontreon,
what's going on with you?

809
00:41:53,378 --> 00:41:56,012
Because I see you lost
some weight, but not enough.

810
00:41:56,014 --> 00:41:57,981
So what happened?

811
00:41:57,983 --> 00:42:00,750
I didn't get to meet
necessarily the goal.

812
00:42:00,752 --> 00:42:05,421
Um, so I'm not too happy
about that. But, um...

813
00:42:06,457 --> 00:42:08,525
I think we're headed in--
In the right direction.

814
00:42:09,026 --> 00:42:10,193
Um...

815
00:42:10,694 --> 00:42:12,662
I just gotta do... Do better.

816
00:42:12,664 --> 00:42:16,933
I got a feeling that you're really
sugarcoating what you have done.

817
00:42:16,935 --> 00:42:19,002
All right, I'm...
I don't think you've really,

818
00:42:19,004 --> 00:42:20,770
uh, done much of the diet

819
00:42:20,772 --> 00:42:22,805
except maybe one or two days.

820
00:42:22,807 --> 00:42:25,975
I don't think you really have
done any of this exercise,

821
00:42:25,977 --> 00:42:27,176
maybe five minutes.

822
00:42:27,178 --> 00:42:29,779
So you're not
taking this seriously

823
00:42:29,781 --> 00:42:32,849
and making excuses
not to be healthy

824
00:42:32,851 --> 00:42:36,819
and do the right thing with
your diet and your exercise.

825
00:42:36,821 --> 00:42:40,790
And then, all you did
was you made some changes

826
00:42:40,792 --> 00:42:42,926
but not a lot of changes.

827
00:42:42,928 --> 00:42:46,262
So what changes
do you think you make?

828
00:42:47,031 --> 00:42:48,164
Um...

829
00:42:48,166 --> 00:42:51,134
I've really been trying to,
uh, stick with the, um,

830
00:42:51,136 --> 00:42:55,138
1,200 calorie, um, diet,
um, per day.

831
00:42:55,573 --> 00:42:56,806
Um... [clears throat]

832
00:42:56,808 --> 00:42:58,074
I know that we...
Me and my wife,

833
00:42:58,076 --> 00:43:00,910
we discussed about
protein shakes.

834
00:43:00,912 --> 00:43:03,880
And I know that I've been
drinking some protein shakes.

835
00:43:03,882 --> 00:43:07,984
And she's been on to me about that
because she said they wouldn't... I'm not--

836
00:43:07,986 --> 00:43:10,286
What do you mean? You're
drinking protein shakes?

837
00:43:11,288 --> 00:43:12,355
Yes.

838
00:43:12,690 --> 00:43:14,657
Okay.

839
00:43:14,659 --> 00:43:17,694
You have eaten the food that
belongs to the next five years.

840
00:43:17,696 --> 00:43:20,063
How in the world
do you need a protein shake?

841
00:43:20,065 --> 00:43:23,132
What do you need
to take a protein shake for?

842
00:43:24,735 --> 00:43:26,336
Who gave you that idea?

843
00:43:28,939 --> 00:43:31,407
I don't know. I just...
I just... I don't know.

844
00:43:32,076 --> 00:43:33,943
Well, I though it was because,
you know,

845
00:43:33,945 --> 00:43:36,179
- I was low on calories-- - What
do you mean you don't know?

846
00:43:36,181 --> 00:43:38,748
We gave you stuff to read
and that said that

847
00:43:38,750 --> 00:43:40,984
no supplements, no shakes.

848
00:43:40,986 --> 00:43:43,186
Tell me, did you read
the stuff I gave you?

849
00:43:43,188 --> 00:43:45,922
Uh, I did read...
I did read some of it.

850
00:43:45,924 --> 00:43:47,991
Um, I haven't--
I haven't read it all.

851
00:43:47,993 --> 00:43:52,862
Well, you have to understand
what to do, what not to do.

852
00:43:52,864 --> 00:43:55,098
So I'm not going to ask you
any questions. Let me ask her.

853
00:43:55,100 --> 00:43:56,833
[chuckles]

854
00:43:56,835 --> 00:44:00,436
Do you think Ontreon was doing
he was supposed to be doing

855
00:44:00,438 --> 00:44:02,171
and sticking to the diet?

856
00:44:02,173 --> 00:44:05,975
Um... Like, the first day
he was doing good.

857
00:44:05,977 --> 00:44:08,945
Like, the first three days?

858
00:44:08,947 --> 00:44:12,081
And then
he started having the shakes.

859
00:44:12,083 --> 00:44:14,951
Then I told him it says in
the book, don't take them.

860
00:44:14,953 --> 00:44:18,788
And then he said, "No.
I used to take them before."

861
00:44:18,790 --> 00:44:21,391
I'm like, "You know,
before, you did take them,

862
00:44:21,393 --> 00:44:24,193
whatever, but the diet says
no shakes.

863
00:44:24,795 --> 00:44:26,062
No shakes at all."

864
00:44:26,064 --> 00:44:31,801
But he made up an argument.
I just left him to be.

865
00:44:31,803 --> 00:44:35,838
And then the other day,
he was eating peanut butter.

866
00:44:35,840 --> 00:44:37,640
He said it's there
in the book that

867
00:44:37,642 --> 00:44:38,675
he must eat peanut butter.

868
00:44:38,677 --> 00:44:41,144
I said, "I read it.
It doesn't say that."

869
00:44:41,146 --> 00:44:44,847
And then we started arguing
about that so I was like, "Okay.

870
00:44:44,849 --> 00:44:48,251
I'm just gonna leave it until
we go back to the doctor

871
00:44:48,253 --> 00:44:49,886
so he can explain to you.

872
00:44:49,888 --> 00:44:51,154
Because it's not there."

873
00:44:51,156 --> 00:44:54,791
Like it... It feels like
maybe the food is the same.

874
00:44:54,793 --> 00:44:56,993
I told him,
"If you go through the book,

875
00:44:56,995 --> 00:44:59,328
and look at the... The food,
it's not the same.

876
00:44:59,330 --> 00:45:00,830
It's different kinds.

877
00:45:00,832 --> 00:45:02,799
Just because you don't like it.

878
00:45:02,801 --> 00:45:05,835
But it's good for you.
Just take it.

879
00:45:05,837 --> 00:45:08,571
Because if you're full, you're not
gonna think of taking peanut butter."

880
00:45:08,939 --> 00:45:10,106
That's what I told him.

881
00:45:10,374 --> 00:45:13,276
So we waiting to come back
so that you'd tell him that

882
00:45:13,278 --> 00:45:17,180
that shakes is a no-no,
peanut butter is a no-no.

883
00:45:18,582 --> 00:45:20,783
So not only
he doesn't listen to me,

884
00:45:20,785 --> 00:45:23,052
he doesn't listen to you either.

885
00:45:23,054 --> 00:45:25,988
No, I wouldn't say... I-- I
wouldn't say that because I...

886
00:45:26,990 --> 00:45:29,592
I... I do listen. I do listen.

887
00:45:29,594 --> 00:45:31,060
Yeah, yeah, you're right.

888
00:45:31,062 --> 00:45:34,964
You listen but you don't care
about it, you don't do anything.

889
00:45:34,966 --> 00:45:38,000
That sounds so horrible.
[laughs] Like...

890
00:45:38,002 --> 00:45:40,403
Like it just sounds horrible
and then it's...

891
00:45:40,938 --> 00:45:43,139
Like...

892
00:45:43,141 --> 00:45:47,243
Uh, I understand, 'cause
it... Textbook, that-- That's...

893
00:45:47,245 --> 00:45:49,812
That's exactly what
I'm doing, but...

894
00:45:49,814 --> 00:45:52,482
At the same time, it's...
That's not my intention.

895
00:45:52,950 --> 00:45:55,084
That's not my intention.

896
00:45:55,086 --> 00:45:57,887
Well, you're diabetic,
you have high blood pressure,

897
00:45:57,889 --> 00:45:59,889
you are grossly overweight,

898
00:45:59,891 --> 00:46:02,291
and you're killing yourself
with the food.

899
00:46:02,293 --> 00:46:05,728
And we give you some
instruction to read every night,

900
00:46:05,730 --> 00:46:07,964
and follow those instructions.

901
00:46:07,966 --> 00:46:11,000
But you decided to do
whatever you want.

902
00:46:11,002 --> 00:46:14,971
But you don't have time to
play around and, um, do this.

903
00:46:14,973 --> 00:46:17,707
Because when you are 700 pounds,

904
00:46:17,709 --> 00:46:20,643
all that pressure on
your heart and your lung,

905
00:46:20,645 --> 00:46:24,147
it is only a matter of time
before they give out.

906
00:46:24,149 --> 00:46:29,252
I have a lot of concern
with, uh, your heart

907
00:46:29,254 --> 00:46:32,288
and, uh, number of medication
you're taking

908
00:46:32,290 --> 00:46:34,824
with the blood sugar
and so forth.

909
00:46:34,826 --> 00:46:39,028
Um, you know, you're not
a healthy person,

910
00:46:39,030 --> 00:46:42,198
and this is a very dangerous
situation you are in,

911
00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:45,001
and you need to try harder.

912
00:46:45,003 --> 00:46:47,203
Get your weight down
before it's too late.

913
00:46:47,205 --> 00:46:50,940
And I'm gonna give you another
two months to lose 80 pounds.

914
00:46:50,942 --> 00:46:53,943
But you can't keep making
excuses for yourself,

915
00:46:53,945 --> 00:46:56,879
and wasting more time
and coming back

916
00:46:56,881 --> 00:46:58,815
and saying
I should have done better

917
00:46:58,817 --> 00:47:01,184
because you can't afford
to do that.

918
00:47:01,186 --> 00:47:03,686
God knows if you're gonna
survive four months.

919
00:47:03,688 --> 00:47:05,054
Okay?

920
00:47:05,056 --> 00:47:09,025
This is, uh, something,
even if you get a common cold

921
00:47:09,027 --> 00:47:13,262
or if you, uh, slip
and, uh, twist your ankle.

922
00:47:13,264 --> 00:47:14,964
Uh, you gonna be bedridden

923
00:47:14,966 --> 00:47:18,935
and then this is gonna be
all over for you so...

924
00:47:18,937 --> 00:47:22,839
And this is something
that you gonna have to be

925
00:47:22,841 --> 00:47:25,041
the one to follow
the instruction

926
00:47:25,043 --> 00:47:27,877
and do the right thing
for your own good

927
00:47:27,879 --> 00:47:29,846
to save your life.

928
00:47:29,848 --> 00:47:31,314
If you don't
wanna save your life,

929
00:47:31,316 --> 00:47:33,416
killing yourself for the food,

930
00:47:33,418 --> 00:47:34,550
then go ahead.

931
00:47:35,252 --> 00:47:37,253
Uh, you know, eat peanut butter,

932
00:47:37,255 --> 00:47:38,955
take your protein shake,

933
00:47:38,957 --> 00:47:40,723
and think
that you're doing good.

934
00:47:40,725 --> 00:47:42,825
But if you want
to save your life,

935
00:47:42,827 --> 00:47:44,827
you need
to take this seriously now.

936
00:47:44,829 --> 00:47:46,495
- You got that?
- [Ontreon] Yes.

937
00:47:46,497 --> 00:47:48,965
[Dr. Now] Okay, let's see
how we're doing in two months.

938
00:47:48,967 --> 00:47:51,934
In the meantime, if you have
any questions about the diet,

939
00:47:51,936 --> 00:47:54,237
about your medication,
give me a call.

940
00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:55,905
I will.

941
00:47:55,907 --> 00:47:57,907
All right, I'll see you
in two months.

942
00:47:57,909 --> 00:47:59,842
Okay, thank you so much,
Dr. Now.

943
00:47:59,844 --> 00:48:01,444
- All right, will see you then.
- [Musa] Thank you.

944
00:48:09,786 --> 00:48:11,020
[indistinct whisper]

945
00:48:12,890 --> 00:48:15,157
Right, it wasn't,
it wasn't so bad.

946
00:48:15,159 --> 00:48:17,260
He didn't come
and stab me and cut me up.

947
00:48:17,262 --> 00:48:19,128
Who was right? I was right.

948
00:48:19,563 --> 00:48:20,696
Mmm-hmm.

949
00:48:20,698 --> 00:48:24,800
At this point, I am very
concerned about Ontreon

950
00:48:24,802 --> 00:48:28,804
<i>because he's not showing he
has any real willingness to change.</i>

951
00:48:28,806 --> 00:48:31,073
<i>The only positive
I'm seeing right now</i>

952
00:48:31,075 --> 00:48:35,177
<i>is that his wife, Musa,
is not an enabler.</i>

953
00:48:35,179 --> 00:48:39,282
<i>She wants to support him to make
healthy choices and improve his life.</i>

954
00:48:39,284 --> 00:48:43,386
The problem is, Ontreon wants
someone else to do the work for him,

955
00:48:43,388 --> 00:48:46,789
<i>and he stopped listening
to anyone's guidance,</i>

956
00:48:46,791 --> 00:48:48,591
<i>and that's a big issue.</i>

957
00:48:48,593 --> 00:48:50,726
<i>Because when someone
asks for help</i>

958
00:48:50,728 --> 00:48:51,861
and gets that help,

959
00:48:51,863 --> 00:48:53,930
<i>and then decide to continue</i>

960
00:48:53,932 --> 00:48:56,699
<i>on the self-destructive path
they are on,</i>

961
00:48:56,701 --> 00:48:58,701
<i>it means that they want
to create</i>

962
00:48:58,703 --> 00:49:00,937
<i>the illusion
they are willing to change,</i>

963
00:49:00,939 --> 00:49:04,040
<i>but with no intent
to actually put action</i>

964
00:49:04,042 --> 00:49:05,274
<i>to what they are saying.</i>

965
00:49:05,276 --> 00:49:09,178
<i>And my concern is that is what
Ontreon is doing</i>

966
00:49:09,180 --> 00:49:12,048
because he has
only made minor changes

967
00:49:12,050 --> 00:49:13,816
<i>to pretend like he's trying.</i>

968
00:49:13,818 --> 00:49:17,186
<i>And the reality is that
he's waiting for someone</i>

969
00:49:17,188 --> 00:49:19,255
<i>to fix the situation for him.</i>

970
00:49:19,257 --> 00:49:21,290
And that's not gonna happen.

971
00:49:22,793 --> 00:49:24,327
[Musa exclaims]

972
00:49:24,329 --> 00:49:26,228
It's not cold outside.

973
00:49:26,230 --> 00:49:27,330
Huh, it's humid.

974
00:49:29,333 --> 00:49:30,266
Muggy.

975
00:49:30,268 --> 00:49:31,133
[Musa] Do you have the key?

976
00:49:31,135 --> 00:49:33,235
<i>[Ontreon] It went interesting.</i>

977
00:49:33,237 --> 00:49:36,205
<i>I wanna say that it went
kind of like how I suspected,</i>

978
00:49:36,207 --> 00:49:38,074
<i>but he was on me.</i>

979
00:49:38,976 --> 00:49:40,710
<i>It was what I needed to hear.</i>

980
00:49:40,712 --> 00:49:42,645
<i>In the end, you know,
he read my cards, too,</i>

981
00:49:42,647 --> 00:49:44,981
<i>he was like, you know, I
haven't been reading the book</i>

982
00:49:44,983 --> 00:49:47,984
<i>which I, technically, really
haven't been reading it.</i>

983
00:49:47,986 --> 00:49:49,986
<i>Skimmed through it
but I rarely read it.</i>

984
00:49:49,988 --> 00:49:51,187
<i>So there's a lot
of little things</i>

985
00:49:51,189 --> 00:49:53,222
<i>that throughout, he was just...</i>

986
00:49:53,924 --> 00:49:55,691
<i>It's healing, he was right.</i>

987
00:49:55,693 --> 00:49:57,093
<i>I know what he's saying</i>

988
00:49:57,095 --> 00:50:01,197
<i>and I know exactly what
he's talking about, like, 100%.</i>

989
00:50:01,199 --> 00:50:04,100
<i>It's kind of where you're
on that fence of,</i>

990
00:50:04,102 --> 00:50:06,969
<i>should I take hope today
or should I not?</i>

991
00:50:14,177 --> 00:50:16,379
[guitar music playing]

992
00:50:21,385 --> 00:50:22,585
[Charles] You got it, sir.

993
00:50:22,587 --> 00:50:24,053
You're in trouble.

994
00:50:24,055 --> 00:50:25,221
[Ontreon] That, that's
why I call you.

995
00:50:25,223 --> 00:50:26,322
[Charles laugh]

996
00:50:26,324 --> 00:50:27,957
[Ontreon] How are you
doing, dude?

997
00:50:27,959 --> 00:50:29,158
Doing good. How are you?

998
00:50:29,160 --> 00:50:30,192
[Ontreon] Doing good.

999
00:50:30,194 --> 00:50:31,560
We got work to do today.

1000
00:50:31,562 --> 00:50:33,329
- Yeah, I know.
- Let's go.

1001
00:50:33,331 --> 00:50:34,663
[Ontreon] Uh-huh.

1002
00:50:34,665 --> 00:50:37,433
- Can't you let me?
- [Charles] No, sir, it's too late. Let's go.

1003
00:50:37,435 --> 00:50:38,968
Let's go. I got weights in
the car. I'm gonna grab that.

1004
00:50:38,970 --> 00:50:40,336
- [Ontreon] Weights?
- Yep.

1005
00:50:40,338 --> 00:50:42,238
- Got one up here.
- See how you're doing so much.

1006
00:50:42,572 --> 00:50:43,772
Try to not be mad.

1007
00:50:43,774 --> 00:50:47,243
My tennis shoes and all
that stuff is in the storage.

1008
00:50:47,245 --> 00:50:49,245
[Charles] Oh, wow. So,
you're gonna do this barefoot?

1009
00:50:49,247 --> 00:50:50,880
[Ontreon] Yeah, pretty much.
I have to.

1010
00:50:50,882 --> 00:50:52,148
[Charles] Okay, no 5K today.

1011
00:50:52,150 --> 00:50:54,150
- No, maybe not tomorrow, either...
- [Charles] Okay.

1012
00:50:54,152 --> 00:50:56,886
- but, hey.
- [Charles] All right, let's go.

1013
00:50:56,888 --> 00:50:58,521
Let's see what you got.
Come on.

1014
00:50:59,823 --> 00:51:02,792
<i>[Ontreon] It's been two weeks
since I saw Dr. Now.</i>

1015
00:51:02,794 --> 00:51:05,061
<i>And my focus has been
on doing better this time.</i>

1016
00:51:05,063 --> 00:51:06,395
[Charles] That is good.

1017
00:51:06,397 --> 00:51:08,998
<i>[Ontreon] I've been especially
focused on my workouts</i>

1018
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,400
<i>and getting back
on the wagon with that.</i>

1019
00:51:12,102 --> 00:51:15,271
<i>And ministry school graduation
is next month,</i>

1020
00:51:15,273 --> 00:51:18,374
<i>so it's important to me
that I get to that in person,</i>

1021
00:51:18,376 --> 00:51:20,076
<i>and that I can walk around</i>

1022
00:51:20,078 --> 00:51:23,679
<i>and not lose all my energy
or have a breakdown.</i>

1023
00:51:23,681 --> 00:51:26,649
<i>Because that would be worst
than embarrassing.</i>

1024
00:51:26,651 --> 00:51:29,885
<i>And not to mention,
it won't go well</i>

1025
00:51:29,887 --> 00:51:31,954
<i>for my future career
as a preacher,</i>

1026
00:51:31,956 --> 00:51:34,356
<i>if I can't even keep my feet.</i>

1027
00:51:35,725 --> 00:51:39,028
<i>So, I want to start my
new life by hitting that goal.</i>

1028
00:51:39,030 --> 00:51:43,966
<i>And that's motivating me
to get back to the exercises.</i>

1029
00:51:43,968 --> 00:51:45,534
Today, this is gonna be
your little runway.

1030
00:51:46,002 --> 00:51:47,069
You strut your stuff.

1031
00:51:47,071 --> 00:51:48,404
So you're going
from here to there.

1032
00:51:48,406 --> 00:51:51,707
We're gonna be going back
and forth, but you're curling.

1033
00:51:51,709 --> 00:51:55,277
<i>[Ontreon] And it's helping me to
keep my focus with my workouts.</i>

1034
00:51:56,046 --> 00:51:57,580
<i>I'm planning on sticking
to those</i>

1035
00:51:57,582 --> 00:51:59,949
<i>until I know that my stamina
is up enough.</i>

1036
00:51:59,951 --> 00:52:01,817
<i>So, I'm working
hard towards my goal.</i>

1037
00:52:01,819 --> 00:52:05,321
<i>Not just for Dr. Now
but for myself.</i>

1038
00:52:05,323 --> 00:52:09,959
<i>To be able to handle going to my
graduation ceremony next month.</i>

1039
00:52:15,999 --> 00:52:17,366
All right. Coming back.

1040
00:52:25,876 --> 00:52:27,243
Are we on the--
We're doing good.

1041
00:52:28,979 --> 00:52:30,579
All right, give me those.

1042
00:52:30,581 --> 00:52:32,114
All right, I gotta throw these
in there.

1043
00:52:32,116 --> 00:52:34,083
I brought two friends today.

1044
00:52:34,085 --> 00:52:35,584
You're already
trying to kill me.

1045
00:52:35,586 --> 00:52:37,219
[Charles] Yep, take a break.
A small break.

1046
00:52:41,691 --> 00:52:43,926
<i>[Ontreon] But I'm also
doing the diet.</i>

1047
00:52:43,928 --> 00:52:45,294
<i>I'm not drinking protein shakes</i>

1048
00:52:45,296 --> 00:52:47,029
<i>or eating peanut butter.</i>

1049
00:52:47,031 --> 00:52:49,031
<i>And I'm listening to Musa.</i>

1050
00:53:00,343 --> 00:53:01,844
[Musa] Time for dinner.

1051
00:53:01,846 --> 00:53:03,779
[Musa chuckles]

1052
00:53:03,781 --> 00:53:05,147
Are you gonna come help me?

1053
00:53:05,149 --> 00:53:07,650
[Ontreon] Mmm-mmm, you got it.

1054
00:53:07,652 --> 00:53:09,118
All right.

1055
00:53:10,887 --> 00:53:13,622
<i>Ontreon like,
if he tried for one day</i>

1056
00:53:13,624 --> 00:53:14,924
<i>and then he gives up.</i>

1057
00:53:14,926 --> 00:53:17,326
<i>And says, "No, I'm going
to do it tomorrow."</i>

1058
00:53:17,328 --> 00:53:19,728
<i>And then tomorrow is
the same story.</i>

1059
00:53:19,730 --> 00:53:21,730
<i>We never stick to a diet.</i>

1060
00:53:21,732 --> 00:53:25,067
<i>So, I am gonna do
everything I can to help him.</i>

1061
00:53:25,069 --> 00:53:27,870
<i>But I told him, like,
"I cannot waste my time</i>

1062
00:53:27,872 --> 00:53:29,438
<i>helping you to lose weight.</i>

1063
00:53:29,440 --> 00:53:32,007
<i>It's either you do it
or you don't want to do it."</i>

1064
00:53:35,278 --> 00:53:36,779
[Ontreon] I don't want it.

1065
00:53:36,781 --> 00:53:38,013
Okay.

1066
00:53:39,382 --> 00:53:40,549
[Ontreon]
That's all right now.

1067
00:53:44,821 --> 00:53:45,988
How is it?

1068
00:53:45,990 --> 00:53:46,789
You trying to kill me?

1069
00:53:46,791 --> 00:53:47,990
[laughs]

1070
00:53:47,992 --> 00:53:49,291
[Ontreon] You are
getting so bad.

1071
00:53:49,293 --> 00:53:51,260
[Musa] It's not bad. Come on.

1072
00:53:51,262 --> 00:53:53,028
This is flavorless.

1073
00:53:53,563 --> 00:53:54,830
Okay.

1074
00:53:54,832 --> 00:53:56,532
But it's good for you,
at the end of the day.

1075
00:53:57,300 --> 00:53:58,467
- [Ontreon] Mmm-hmm.
- Hmm.

1076
00:53:59,936 --> 00:54:01,170
[laughs]

1077
00:54:05,242 --> 00:54:07,009
- [Musa] Mmm-hmm.
- Mmm.

1078
00:54:07,011 --> 00:54:08,310
[Musa laughs]

1079
00:54:11,014 --> 00:54:13,249
[slow instrumental
music playing]

1080
00:54:22,459 --> 00:54:24,593
<i>[Ontreon] Today is the day
of my graduation.</i>

1081
00:54:25,829 --> 00:54:28,731
<i>I've been using this night
as a motivator.</i>

1082
00:54:28,733 --> 00:54:31,567
<i>And the thought of being
in front of other people</i>

1083
00:54:31,569 --> 00:54:34,336
<i>and how bad it will feel
if I couldn't stand</i>

1084
00:54:34,338 --> 00:54:36,839
<i>or couldn't walk like I need.</i>

1085
00:54:36,841 --> 00:54:39,108
<i>So, I've been imagining that,</i>

1086
00:54:39,110 --> 00:54:41,910
<i>and it's been helping me
to try harder,</i>

1087
00:54:41,912 --> 00:54:45,047
<i>to eat better
and work out harder.</i>

1088
00:54:51,388 --> 00:54:53,255
[knocking on door]

1089
00:54:53,790 --> 00:54:54,990
Come on in.

1090
00:54:58,028 --> 00:54:59,561
- Doing all right?
- Yeah, I'm doing good.

1091
00:54:59,563 --> 00:55:00,829
Mmm-hmm.

1092
00:55:00,831 --> 00:55:01,797
- You ready?
- No.

1093
00:55:01,799 --> 00:55:03,532
[both chuckle]

1094
00:55:05,135 --> 00:55:08,037
[Ontreon] Don't laugh at me
because it isn't closed all the way.

1095
00:55:08,772 --> 00:55:10,339
No.

1096
00:55:10,341 --> 00:55:12,174
[Ontreon] I had to remove
the little white collar to show.

1097
00:55:12,176 --> 00:55:14,109
[Ontreon laughs]

1098
00:55:19,983 --> 00:55:21,417
- Need some help?
- [Ontreon] No, I got it.

1099
00:55:22,952 --> 00:55:24,053
[John whispers] A pastor.

1100
00:55:24,988 --> 00:55:26,088
Looks good.

1101
00:55:28,158 --> 00:55:29,291
All right.

1102
00:55:29,926 --> 00:55:31,160
Babe?

1103
00:55:31,328 --> 00:55:33,262
[Musa] Yep, you ready?

1104
00:55:33,264 --> 00:55:34,897
Yeah, I'm ready,
I'm going to be.

1105
00:55:34,899 --> 00:55:36,432
Okay, let's go.

1106
00:55:36,434 --> 00:55:37,833
- [Ontreon] How do I look?
- Oh, yeah.

1107
00:55:37,835 --> 00:55:39,768
You look like a real pastor.

1108
00:55:39,770 --> 00:55:42,705
I know. That's what
John just said, too, baby.

1109
00:55:42,707 --> 00:55:46,075
Pastor, damn, I don't know
what I did right there.

1110
00:55:46,077 --> 00:55:48,977
- [Musa] Hmm, running late.
- [Ontreon] Yeah.

1111
00:55:50,113 --> 00:55:51,046
[Ontreon exhales]

1112
00:55:51,048 --> 00:55:52,414
Then we gonna do the shoes.

1113
00:55:52,949 --> 00:55:55,217
- [Musa] When we get there.
- Okay.

1114
00:55:57,987 --> 00:55:59,888
[Musa] Are you
gonna drive okay with those?

1115
00:55:59,890 --> 00:56:01,957
- [John] I'll follow you.
- [Ontreon] Okay.

1116
00:56:01,959 --> 00:56:03,092
[Musa] You better follow us.

1117
00:56:03,094 --> 00:56:04,159
[Musa and Ontreon laugh]

1118
00:56:04,161 --> 00:56:05,828
Now, now, John.

1119
00:56:05,830 --> 00:56:07,196
Now, now, you know me.

1120
00:56:07,198 --> 00:56:08,997
- [John] I'll keep up, man.
- All right.

1121
00:56:19,442 --> 00:56:20,609
[car starting]

1122
00:56:25,849 --> 00:56:28,951
<i>[Ontreon] I'm putting all
my hard work to the test.</i>

1123
00:56:28,953 --> 00:56:31,120
<i>I've been sticking
to my workouts</i>

1124
00:56:32,756 --> 00:56:34,990
<i>and I think I've been
doing better this time.</i>

1125
00:56:40,830 --> 00:56:43,132
<i>I'm hopeful that I'll be okay.</i>

1126
00:56:43,134 --> 00:56:45,334
<i>I won't know
until I get in there.</i>

1127
00:56:48,037 --> 00:56:50,172
<i>And my biggest fear would be</i>

1128
00:56:50,174 --> 00:56:53,175
<i>if I mess up the whole
ceremony for everybody else.</i>

1129
00:56:56,880 --> 00:56:58,981
<i>But I don't want that to happen</i>

1130
00:56:58,983 --> 00:57:01,116
<i>and I don't want
to think about it.</i>

1131
00:57:03,553 --> 00:57:06,555
Yeah, I really hope
they don't ask me to speak

1132
00:57:06,557 --> 00:57:07,956
'cause you know what I
forgot my Bible at the house.

1133
00:57:07,958 --> 00:57:09,591
I had to use my phone.

1134
00:57:09,593 --> 00:57:11,360
[John] Oh, they got a Bible
in there. Don't worry about it.

1135
00:57:11,362 --> 00:57:13,395
See you there.
But, it's okay. I'll just--

1136
00:57:15,832 --> 00:57:17,266
It's okay.

1137
00:57:20,136 --> 00:57:23,071
<i>I've got to believe that I'm
gonna be able to handle it.</i>

1138
00:57:23,840 --> 00:57:25,174
<i>I don't want to miss this night</i>

1139
00:57:25,176 --> 00:57:27,142
<i>or mess it up.</i>

1140
00:57:27,144 --> 00:57:30,846
<i>I wanna be able to celebrate
like everyone else.</i>

1141
00:57:30,848 --> 00:57:33,348
<i>It's not fair
if I'm not able to do that.</i>

1142
00:57:34,117 --> 00:57:35,350
<i>I think I'm ready to do it.</i>

1143
00:57:35,352 --> 00:57:37,119
[singer 1]
<i>♪ Give it all I have ♪</i>

1144
00:57:37,121 --> 00:57:38,353
<i>[Ontreon] I hope I am.</i>

1145
00:57:38,355 --> 00:57:39,588
<i>[singer 1] ♪ In this moment ♪</i>

1146
00:57:39,590 --> 00:57:40,889
[indistinct chatter]

1147
00:57:40,891 --> 00:57:41,857
<i>♪ Come on ♪</i>

1148
00:57:41,859 --> 00:57:43,392
[singer 2]
<i>♪ Help us sing y'all ♪</i>

1149
00:57:43,394 --> 00:57:47,329
<i>♪ This ain't
no ordinary worship ♪</i>

1150
00:57:47,331 --> 00:57:49,565
<i>[singer 1] ♪ Oh, oh, uh, oh ♪</i>

1151
00:57:49,567 --> 00:57:50,999
[singer 2]
<i>♪ This ain't no ordinary ♪</i>

1152
00:57:51,001 --> 00:57:53,168
<i>♪ This ain't no ordinary ♪</i>

1153
00:57:53,170 --> 00:57:56,638
<i>[singer 3] ♪ Yeah ♪</i>

1154
00:57:56,640 --> 00:57:58,040
[singer 1]
<i>♪ The God I serve is greater ♪</i>

1155
00:57:58,042 --> 00:58:03,879
<i>[singer 2] ♪ The God I serve
is greater than the ordinary ♪</i>

1156
00:58:03,881 --> 00:58:06,181
<i>[singer 3] ♪ Come on
Give it all I have ♪</i>

1157
00:58:06,183 --> 00:58:10,052
<i>♪ Give it all I have
In this moment ♪</i>

1158
00:58:14,023 --> 00:58:15,390
[woman 4] Hallelujah!

1159
00:58:16,693 --> 00:58:18,827
<i>[officiant] Hello!</i>

1160
00:58:18,829 --> 00:58:21,263
<i>This is the point
in which we are going</i>

1161
00:58:21,265 --> 00:58:24,867
<i>to anoint these vessels
and present to them</i>

1162
00:58:24,869 --> 00:58:26,969
<i>their license and ordination.</i>

1163
00:58:26,971 --> 00:58:30,339
<i>- Minister Ontreon Shannon.
- [all applauding]</i>

1164
00:58:30,341 --> 00:58:31,940
[man 2] Amen.

1165
00:58:31,942 --> 00:58:34,376
[all cheering and applauding]

1166
00:58:36,980 --> 00:58:39,581
- [man 2] Amen.
<i>- [officiant] I anoint you in the name of the Father...</i>

1167
00:58:39,583 --> 00:58:41,016
<i>the Son
and the Holy Spirit.</i>

1168
00:58:41,018 --> 00:58:42,985
<i>So you serve patiently
for peace.</i>

1169
00:58:42,987 --> 00:58:45,354
[audience applauding]

1170
00:58:48,024 --> 00:58:50,359
<i>[Ontreon] You know what?
I'm proud of myself.</i>

1171
00:58:51,895 --> 00:58:53,996
<i>This is a really special day.</i>

1172
00:58:53,998 --> 00:58:55,931
<i>The reason why I've started</i>

1173
00:58:55,933 --> 00:58:58,734
the weight loss program is
because of the spirituality.

1174
00:58:58,736 --> 00:59:01,737
<i>I believe that God has
a purpose for me.</i>

1175
00:59:01,739 --> 00:59:05,340
I believe that he has
designed me for certain things,

1176
00:59:05,342 --> 00:59:09,945
and I want to
accomplish those things.

1177
00:59:09,947 --> 00:59:13,949
<i>And so that is the reason why
me losing weight is important.</i>

1178
00:59:13,951 --> 00:59:15,217
<i>If I can't walk,</i>

1179
00:59:15,219 --> 00:59:18,120
then how am I gonna be
able to go out.

1180
00:59:18,122 --> 00:59:19,888
I mean, if I can't stand
for long,

1181
00:59:19,890 --> 00:59:22,925
how will I be able to stand
and talk with someone,

1182
00:59:22,927 --> 00:59:24,126
um, you know,

1183
00:59:24,128 --> 00:59:25,894
about the ministry, about God,

1184
00:59:25,896 --> 00:59:27,863
<i>about life changing things.</i>

1185
00:59:27,865 --> 00:59:30,165
- Congratulations.
- Thank you. Thank you.

1186
00:59:30,167 --> 00:59:31,366
- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

1187
00:59:31,368 --> 00:59:32,868
<i>[Ontreon] So, losing weight
is vital.</i>

1188
00:59:32,870 --> 00:59:34,002
This is gonna be, uh,

1189
00:59:34,004 --> 00:59:35,671
a very major key to,

1190
00:59:35,673 --> 00:59:38,106
to anything that I do
in the ministry.

1191
00:59:38,108 --> 00:59:41,043
Yeah. Get everything, is he
gonna be here? I said I don't know.

1192
00:59:41,045 --> 00:59:45,147
And graduating today, um,
this helps me to stay focused

1193
00:59:45,149 --> 00:59:47,549
on the purpose
and completing the process.

1194
00:59:47,551 --> 00:59:49,952
[Musa sings]

1195
00:59:51,220 --> 00:59:52,888
We won. Yeah, I'm good.

1196
00:59:52,890 --> 00:59:54,389
Oh, I'm good.

1197
00:59:55,224 --> 00:59:57,225
[Ontreon chuckles]
Thank you, baby.

1198
00:59:58,795 --> 01:00:01,396
[slow instrumental
music playing]

1199
01:00:07,170 --> 01:00:11,006
<i>[Ontreon] I'm back in Houston for
another appointment with Dr. Now.</i>

1200
01:00:12,008 --> 01:00:14,343
<i>Musa couldn't make it today.</i>

1201
01:00:14,345 --> 01:00:17,179
<i>So she recruited my
mom's friend, Pat, to be here.</i>

1202
01:00:17,947 --> 01:00:19,781
<i>Pat is like a aunt to me,</i>

1203
01:00:19,783 --> 01:00:24,019
<i>and I'm glad to have someone
so I didn't have to go alone.</i>

1204
01:00:24,021 --> 01:00:26,788
<i>I think I made
more progress today.</i>

1205
01:00:26,790 --> 01:00:28,123
<i>But I'm worried
that it's not gonna be</i>

1206
01:00:28,125 --> 01:00:31,093
<i>the same amount
that Dr. Now wants.</i>

1207
01:00:31,095 --> 01:00:34,029
<i>Because I worked hard to get
my ministry graduation.</i>

1208
01:00:35,832 --> 01:00:38,066
Ontreon.

1209
01:00:38,068 --> 01:00:41,203
<i>[Ontreon] But since then, there
has been a lot of celebrating.</i>

1210
01:00:41,971 --> 01:00:44,873
<i>And so I slipped up
on some of my diet.</i>

1211
01:00:44,875 --> 01:00:47,409
<i>But I still worked hard
to do my best.</i>

1212
01:00:48,144 --> 01:00:51,313
<i>And I'm hoping
to see some good results.</i>

1213
01:00:51,315 --> 01:00:53,915
<i>Maybe even a little
bit better than last time.</i>

1214
01:00:53,917 --> 01:00:56,084
Okay, you can step on the scale.

1215
01:00:56,886 --> 01:01:00,989
<i>[Ontreon] Last appointment
I weigh 683 pounds.</i>

1216
01:01:02,091 --> 01:01:05,794
<i>Dr. Now want me to lose
80 pounds in two months.</i>

1217
01:01:05,796 --> 01:01:07,696
<i>And if I did that, it would mean</i>

1218
01:01:07,698 --> 01:01:11,466
<i>that I'm down
to around 603 today.</i>

1219
01:01:16,773 --> 01:01:19,374
- Okay, your weight is 689.
- All right.

1220
01:01:27,950 --> 01:01:30,185
<i>I thought I did
a lot better than that.</i>

1221
01:01:30,187 --> 01:01:34,156
<i>I'm just a little surprised
because I thought I lost weight.</i>

1222
01:01:34,757 --> 01:01:37,492
<i>I definitely didn't expect
to gain weight...</i>

1223
01:01:38,861 --> 01:01:42,130
<i>and now I'm worried about
what Dr. Now is gonna say.</i>

1224
01:01:42,765 --> 01:01:44,232
[knocking at door]

1225
01:01:46,803 --> 01:01:49,571
- Hello, how y'all doing?
- Good, how are you?

1226
01:01:49,573 --> 01:01:52,974
Good. So who is
young lady with you?

1227
01:01:52,976 --> 01:01:54,743
Uh, this is my aunt.

1228
01:01:54,745 --> 01:01:57,345
It's actually my mom's friend,
but I call her Aunt Pat.

1229
01:01:57,980 --> 01:01:59,581
- Okay.
- Since I was little.

1230
01:01:59,583 --> 01:02:01,083
So what happened to your wife?

1231
01:02:01,085 --> 01:02:02,651
She gave up on you?

1232
01:02:02,653 --> 01:02:05,554
- [both laugh] - No, no,
she didn't give up on me.

1233
01:02:05,556 --> 01:02:08,557
She, uh, she had a couple
of appointments and stuff,

1234
01:02:08,559 --> 01:02:12,194
and so, just trying to still work
on her green card and stuff, so...

1235
01:02:12,196 --> 01:02:16,198
All right, well, it is good thing
she's not here to see your result

1236
01:02:16,200 --> 01:02:19,101
because instead of losing
80 pounds in two months,

1237
01:02:19,103 --> 01:02:21,002
you gained six pounds.

1238
01:02:21,004 --> 01:02:22,838
You wanna explain that?

1239
01:02:22,840 --> 01:02:25,941
Uh, I plead the Fifth Amendment.

1240
01:02:25,943 --> 01:02:28,110
[laughs] I don't know,
I'm joking.

1241
01:02:28,112 --> 01:02:30,178
I'm joking. No, I, um...

1242
01:02:31,147 --> 01:02:33,181
I don't know
how to explain it, um...

1243
01:02:33,183 --> 01:02:34,816
Well, try.

1244
01:02:34,818 --> 01:02:37,419
I want you to verbalize
what you did

1245
01:02:37,421 --> 01:02:39,554
and what you supposed not to do.

1246
01:02:39,556 --> 01:02:41,156
Um...

1247
01:02:43,893 --> 01:02:48,029
To be honest, I did have a
few cheat days where, where...

1248
01:02:48,031 --> 01:02:50,098
Well, of course,
you be need to be honest.

1249
01:02:50,100 --> 01:02:54,202
You can't lie to me when
the scale is my lie detector.

1250
01:02:54,204 --> 01:02:57,005
It already told me
you had a lot of cheat days.

1251
01:02:57,007 --> 01:03:00,075
The question is why,
when it's gonna kill you.

1252
01:03:03,012 --> 01:03:04,880
I don't, I don't know.

1253
01:03:04,882 --> 01:03:06,948
What's the point
of coming here and telling me

1254
01:03:06,950 --> 01:03:08,750
you wanna change your life

1255
01:03:08,752 --> 01:03:12,954
if you have no intention to do the
diet or anything you need to do?

1256
01:03:12,956 --> 01:03:17,526
I do wanna do the diet and
I've been really working, well...

1257
01:03:17,528 --> 01:03:18,993
I been wanting,
I wanna do the diet.

1258
01:03:18,995 --> 01:03:22,297
I wanna do the program and, and
it's not like that I don't wanna do it,

1259
01:03:22,299 --> 01:03:25,233
I just dropped the ball
this, this go-around,

1260
01:03:25,235 --> 01:03:27,002
and so, I don't know.

1261
01:03:27,004 --> 01:03:28,937
But I did drop the ball
and I know that--

1262
01:03:28,939 --> 01:03:30,906
What mean you don't know?

1263
01:03:30,908 --> 01:03:35,076
Is somebody else eating for
you, or you eating it for yourself?

1264
01:03:35,078 --> 01:03:38,914
No, um, I'm eating
for my, for myself.

1265
01:03:38,916 --> 01:03:42,250
So is it hard to understand
that you're overeating

1266
01:03:42,252 --> 01:03:44,486
to be almost 700 pound?

1267
01:03:44,921 --> 01:03:46,822
I, I don't know.

1268
01:03:46,824 --> 01:03:50,258
Your health is in jeopardy
being diabetic,

1269
01:03:50,260 --> 01:03:53,195
hyperlipidemia, with all
the health issue you got

1270
01:03:53,197 --> 01:03:55,197
and you're still
not losing weight,

1271
01:03:55,199 --> 01:03:57,766
so this is a serious issue
with you.

1272
01:03:57,768 --> 01:03:59,267
So when are you going to wake up

1273
01:03:59,269 --> 01:04:02,103
and do what you say you will?

1274
01:04:02,105 --> 01:04:05,307
- Um...
- Are you expecting us to make you lose weight?

1275
01:04:05,575 --> 01:04:08,043
No, no, I'm not.

1276
01:04:08,045 --> 01:04:12,013
No, I don't expect you guys
to make me lose weight,

1277
01:04:12,015 --> 01:04:16,117
but I know that I do need
the accountability.

1278
01:04:16,119 --> 01:04:18,386
And that's, since our last visit

1279
01:04:18,388 --> 01:04:20,222
I have started reading the book,

1280
01:04:20,224 --> 01:04:22,891
um, and, and so I've,

1281
01:04:22,893 --> 01:04:25,794
I've been working on
implementing it,

1282
01:04:25,796 --> 01:04:29,564
just not every day like
I'm supposed to, and so...

1283
01:04:31,033 --> 01:04:32,734
So, I'm planning on doing that.

1284
01:04:32,736 --> 01:04:36,471
It was just me not paying
attention, not, not mindful,

1285
01:04:36,473 --> 01:04:39,741
eating, or mindful thinking
about eating anything

1286
01:04:39,743 --> 01:04:43,178
and so, that's not right
and so, I do know that.

1287
01:04:43,180 --> 01:04:46,047
So when you plan to cut back?

1288
01:04:46,049 --> 01:04:47,315
Um...

1289
01:04:49,085 --> 01:04:51,086
Now? I mean, I...

1290
01:04:52,989 --> 01:04:55,156
Uh, I don't know, I... Now.

1291
01:04:55,158 --> 01:04:58,827
Uh, you're at very dangerous
point in your life,

1292
01:04:58,829 --> 01:05:01,863
and this is going to be
a difficult situation

1293
01:05:01,865 --> 01:05:03,932
with your BMI being over 100,

1294
01:05:03,934 --> 01:05:06,001
you're gonna run
out of time very soon

1295
01:05:06,003 --> 01:05:09,371
and you're gonna push
your body to a limit, and...

1296
01:05:09,373 --> 01:05:13,942
You have all the elements of everything
given to you to change your life,

1297
01:05:13,944 --> 01:05:16,511
but you're not taking it,
so where is that gonna end?

1298
01:05:17,179 --> 01:05:18,480
Um...

1299
01:05:19,348 --> 01:05:21,883
Not a place
I wanna go right now,

1300
01:05:21,885 --> 01:05:25,086
and that's death, you know,

1301
01:05:25,088 --> 01:05:28,957
um, and I know that, so...

1302
01:05:28,959 --> 01:05:31,559
[Dr. Now] But knowing that is
still not enough for you

1303
01:05:31,561 --> 01:05:32,827
to give up the food,

1304
01:05:32,829 --> 01:05:36,131
and you're not gonna live
much longer at this rate.

1305
01:05:36,133 --> 01:05:38,133
But we can't seem to wake you up

1306
01:05:38,135 --> 01:05:39,567
to understand that,

1307
01:05:39,569 --> 01:05:42,070
so I'm gonna send you
to psychotherapy

1308
01:05:42,072 --> 01:05:44,773
to see if they can make
some sort of difference.

1309
01:05:44,775 --> 01:05:47,542
But if they can't,
then you're done,

1310
01:05:47,544 --> 01:05:49,911
and we are not moving
ahead with you.

1311
01:05:49,913 --> 01:05:53,915
So this is your last chance
to take it, to save your life,

1312
01:05:53,917 --> 01:05:57,752
and if you don't take it, I don't think
you're gonna have any more chances.

1313
01:05:57,754 --> 01:06:01,756
So, you either now do the
right thing or you give it up.

1314
01:06:01,758 --> 01:06:03,191
And be honest with yourself.

1315
01:06:03,193 --> 01:06:06,294
There's nothing magic in here
that can help you

1316
01:06:06,296 --> 01:06:09,698
except you gonna make
the decision to be healthy

1317
01:06:09,700 --> 01:06:11,199
and watch your diet.

1318
01:06:11,201 --> 01:06:13,768
And either you're not
making that decision

1319
01:06:13,770 --> 01:06:15,870
or you're kicking down the road

1320
01:06:15,872 --> 01:06:17,806
and hoping something
will happen,

1321
01:06:17,808 --> 01:06:18,974
but nothing's gonna happen.

1322
01:06:18,976 --> 01:06:20,875
You're gonna have
to do that yourself.

1323
01:06:20,877 --> 01:06:25,246
So, I don't have anything else to
tell you that you haven't heard before.

1324
01:06:25,248 --> 01:06:27,816
We have given you
every chance to lose weight,

1325
01:06:27,818 --> 01:06:29,551
but you're not taking it.

1326
01:06:29,553 --> 01:06:32,754
You're throwing it away and
you aren't doing the right thing.

1327
01:06:32,756 --> 01:06:35,390
So, when?
When you gonna change?

1328
01:06:35,392 --> 01:06:39,761
Uh, I thought
that I was, was ready.

1329
01:06:39,763 --> 01:06:42,564
Actions speaks
much louder than word,

1330
01:06:42,566 --> 01:06:45,900
and the scale tells us
the truth.

1331
01:06:45,902 --> 01:06:48,970
So if you're telling me
you're gonna change,

1332
01:06:48,972 --> 01:06:51,973
well, hope you see that in,
on the scale next time.

1333
01:06:51,975 --> 01:06:53,842
So, this is your last chance

1334
01:06:53,844 --> 01:06:55,377
and I'm gonna give you
the same goal,

1335
01:06:55,379 --> 01:06:57,979
lose 80 pounds
for the next two months.

1336
01:06:57,981 --> 01:07:02,250
And if you do, we'll appeal
for weight loss surgery.

1337
01:07:02,252 --> 01:07:05,020
If not, I don't know
what else we can do for you.

1338
01:07:05,022 --> 01:07:05,987
Okay.

1339
01:07:05,989 --> 01:07:07,355
- Okay?
- Okay.

1340
01:07:07,357 --> 01:07:09,824
All right, if you need
anything, give me a call.

1341
01:07:09,826 --> 01:07:11,159
- Okay.
- Nice to meet you.

1342
01:07:11,161 --> 01:07:12,961
Nice to meet you, too.

1343
01:07:12,963 --> 01:07:14,396
All right, see y'all later.

1344
01:07:14,398 --> 01:07:16,031
All right, thank you
so much, Dr. Now.

1345
01:07:16,033 --> 01:07:17,165
Okay.

1346
01:07:21,103 --> 01:07:25,073
Ontreon still doesn't see
the severity of his situation

1347
01:07:25,075 --> 01:07:26,441
enough to change his life.

1348
01:07:26,742 --> 01:07:30,979
<i>Maybe psychotherapy will be
able to break through to him.</i>

1349
01:07:30,981 --> 01:07:35,917
Especially if Ontreon is using
some past trauma to justify

1350
01:07:35,919 --> 01:07:38,153
<i>the need to go to food
for comfort.</i>

1351
01:07:38,155 --> 01:07:41,890
But if they're not able
to get him to turn around

1352
01:07:41,892 --> 01:07:45,093
<i>and start moving
in the direction he needs,</i>

1353
01:07:45,095 --> 01:07:47,262
<i>even a little bit by next time,</i>

1354
01:07:47,264 --> 01:07:50,165
<i>then it will be clear
he has no intention</i>

1355
01:07:50,167 --> 01:07:53,268
to take responsibility
for his life.

1356
01:07:54,870 --> 01:07:57,639
<i>[Ontreon] I was scared
going into the appointment</i>

1357
01:07:57,641 --> 01:08:01,643
<i>because I didn't know if Dr. Now
was gonna kick me out of the program.</i>

1358
01:08:01,645 --> 01:08:05,613
<i>I'm trying to be honest with
Dr. Now about my shortcomings,</i>

1359
01:08:05,615 --> 01:08:09,884
<i>but I know that I just need
to do better, like he says.</i>

1360
01:08:09,886 --> 01:08:13,321
<i>I can't let Musa down and I
can't let my mom down, either.</i>

1361
01:08:13,323 --> 01:08:15,423
<i>I know they want me to do this.</i>

1362
01:08:17,093 --> 01:08:19,794
<i>This is the point
that I need to change my life,</i>

1363
01:08:19,796 --> 01:08:21,863
<i>and whatever's gonna
do that for me,</i>

1364
01:08:21,865 --> 01:08:23,231
<i>I'm gonna try it.</i>

1365
01:08:23,233 --> 01:08:26,935
<i>Because it feels like I've
already tried a bunch of things,</i>

1366
01:08:26,937 --> 01:08:29,104
<i>and they're not working.</i>

1367
01:08:39,682 --> 01:08:41,616
<i>[Ontreon] Today, I have
my session with Dr. Paradise</i>

1368
01:08:41,618 --> 01:08:43,651
<i>and I think
I'm looking forward to it.</i>

1369
01:08:43,653 --> 01:08:46,521
<i>I know I want to get it out of
the way as soon as possible,</i>

1370
01:08:46,523 --> 01:08:48,189
<i>because I don't think
it's gonna help me</i>

1371
01:08:48,191 --> 01:08:51,826
<i>and I know I have a lot
of issues to work through.</i>

1372
01:08:51,828 --> 01:08:55,096
<i>And it'll be nice
to have someone to talk to.</i>

1373
01:08:55,098 --> 01:08:58,099
<i>I just hope that nothing
comes up here</i>

1374
01:08:58,101 --> 01:09:00,902
<i>that is gonna make my journey
any more difficult</i>

1375
01:09:00,904 --> 01:09:02,237
<i>than it already is.</i>

1376
01:09:02,638 --> 01:09:04,105
Welcome.

1377
01:09:04,107 --> 01:09:06,975
Thank you. It's, it's nice
to meet you, actually.

1378
01:09:06,977 --> 01:09:09,010
[chuckles] It's good
to meet you, too.

1379
01:09:09,012 --> 01:09:10,945
So, tell me a little bit
about yourself.

1380
01:09:11,013 --> 01:09:12,313
Um...

1381
01:09:13,115 --> 01:09:16,050
Well, I am a licensed minister.

1382
01:09:16,052 --> 01:09:17,719
Is that what you wanna do
for a job?

1383
01:09:17,721 --> 01:09:20,488
I think for, for a main
source, I think so.

1384
01:09:20,490 --> 01:09:22,123
- That's what I wanna do, mainly.
- Okay.

1385
01:09:22,125 --> 01:09:24,359
What, what's standing
in the way of that?

1386
01:09:27,830 --> 01:09:30,965
Probably going further
than what I am, I don't know.

1387
01:09:30,967 --> 01:09:33,334
Well, tell me how your,
how your weight loss is going.

1388
01:09:35,137 --> 01:09:38,006
Uh, there's,
there's been a struggle.

1389
01:09:38,008 --> 01:09:39,741
- Okay.
- Um...

1390
01:09:39,743 --> 01:09:41,910
So let, let's...
That's why you're here.

1391
01:09:41,912 --> 01:09:45,079
So let's talk, let's talk
about the struggle, okay?

1392
01:09:45,081 --> 01:09:46,781
What's, what's keeping
you stuck?

1393
01:09:46,783 --> 01:09:48,983
Today, I might care,
tomorrow, I may not.

1394
01:09:49,818 --> 01:09:51,753
Okay, so what puts
you in a place

1395
01:09:51,755 --> 01:09:53,254
where you're not caring?

1396
01:09:53,256 --> 01:09:54,656
[Ontreon] You know, before,

1397
01:09:54,658 --> 01:09:56,958
around 2013, 2014,

1398
01:09:56,960 --> 01:10:00,028
I ended up, um,
losing about 300 pounds.

1399
01:10:00,030 --> 01:10:01,896
What happened after that?

1400
01:10:01,898 --> 01:10:04,232
So, there was
just a lot of death.

1401
01:10:05,034 --> 01:10:06,034
Who died?

1402
01:10:06,036 --> 01:10:09,270
Uh, it started off
with, uh, my aunt.

1403
01:10:09,272 --> 01:10:11,005
Me and her are 14 years apart.

1404
01:10:11,007 --> 01:10:13,441
- Okay, so she wasn't much older than you at all.
- No, no.

1405
01:10:13,443 --> 01:10:14,876
So we was more like sisters.

1406
01:10:14,878 --> 01:10:16,945
Okay. She was
like a sister to you.

1407
01:10:16,947 --> 01:10:18,179
-Yeah.
-Yeah, yeah. How'd she pass?

1408
01:10:18,247 --> 01:10:20,148
Um...

1409
01:10:20,150 --> 01:10:22,917
It was sudden, like,
her heart just stopped.

1410
01:10:22,919 --> 01:10:24,752
Wow. Was she big?

1411
01:10:24,754 --> 01:10:26,955
Uh, she was. She was.

1412
01:10:26,957 --> 01:10:29,090
Okay, keep track of that.

1413
01:10:29,325 --> 01:10:30,858
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1414
01:10:30,860 --> 01:10:32,026
What did that do to you?

1415
01:10:32,028 --> 01:10:35,063
One of the issues is
that I'm having is,

1416
01:10:35,065 --> 01:10:38,132
is that if I can figure out
how to departmentalize

1417
01:10:38,634 --> 01:10:39,934
these things,

1418
01:10:39,936 --> 01:10:43,705
and then deal with the issues
at some point,

1419
01:10:43,707 --> 01:10:46,507
- then I could focus-- - How,
how's that working for you?

1420
01:10:46,509 --> 01:10:49,978
I worry that it's, that's, that's
not, um, working out for you...

1421
01:10:50,946 --> 01:10:54,182
and that part of the reason
you're as big as you are now,

1422
01:10:54,184 --> 01:10:57,685
and part of the reason why
you're off track in losing weight

1423
01:10:57,687 --> 01:11:01,256
is 'cause you've got a bunch
of unresolved stuff inside there.

1424
01:11:01,258 --> 01:11:05,093
But it, it's blocking,
um, something for you.

1425
01:11:05,561 --> 01:11:06,561
I agree.

1426
01:11:07,630 --> 01:11:11,032
- So, you're a licensed minister.
- Yes.

1427
01:11:11,034 --> 01:11:13,201
So you probably had
some training in this, right?

1428
01:11:13,203 --> 01:11:15,103
Certainly in, like,
grief counseling, right?

1429
01:11:15,170 --> 01:11:16,471
Um, a little bit.

1430
01:11:16,473 --> 01:11:19,574
What'd you, what'd you learn
about grief counseling?

1431
01:11:19,576 --> 01:11:23,378
Pretty much, allow that person
to, not necessarily to work it out,

1432
01:11:23,380 --> 01:11:27,248
- but to...
- What do you teach them to do?

1433
01:11:27,950 --> 01:11:29,951
I tell them to,

1434
01:11:30,286 --> 01:11:33,021
to mourn, you know?

1435
01:11:33,023 --> 01:11:34,422
[Dr. Paradise]
How have you mourned?

1436
01:11:38,193 --> 01:11:39,394
To be honest, I haven't.

1437
01:11:40,829 --> 01:11:42,096
Bingo.

1438
01:11:43,198 --> 01:11:45,800
I think, I think
that's why you're here.

1439
01:11:45,802 --> 01:11:47,101
I think that's why
we're talking,

1440
01:11:47,103 --> 01:11:49,804
is I'm, I'm here
to convince you to mourn.

1441
01:11:49,806 --> 01:11:53,574
I think until you mourn
those losses

1442
01:11:53,576 --> 01:11:55,576
you're gonna be stuck
in some way or another.

1443
01:11:55,578 --> 01:11:58,279
- You know, this is gonna be your homework.
- Yeah.

1444
01:11:58,281 --> 01:12:00,782
And do you write sermons?
Did you write sermons

1445
01:12:00,784 --> 01:12:02,717
as part of your training?

1446
01:12:02,719 --> 01:12:04,052
Yeah, I did a little bit, yeah.

1447
01:12:04,054 --> 01:12:06,421
So, I want you
to write a sermon about this.

1448
01:12:06,922 --> 01:12:08,990
- Okay.
- You know, um,

1449
01:12:08,992 --> 01:12:12,293
I feel like you have
two kinds of weight to lose.

1450
01:12:12,295 --> 01:12:13,961
- Yeah.
- And the physical weight is

1451
01:12:13,963 --> 01:12:16,964
almost less important
than the emotional weight.

1452
01:12:16,966 --> 01:12:19,233
You're, you're, carrying
around 700 pounds

1453
01:12:19,235 --> 01:12:21,269
of emotional weight, too.

1454
01:12:21,271 --> 01:12:23,071
But it seems
like the emotional weight

1455
01:12:23,073 --> 01:12:24,806
is heavier than the physical.

1456
01:12:24,808 --> 01:12:28,009
- Yeah.
- You know?

1457
01:12:28,011 --> 01:12:30,178
So, Ontreon, I'm gonna
bring your wife in. Is that okay?

1458
01:12:30,180 --> 01:12:32,046
- Yes.
- And what we'll talk about the homework, okay?

1459
01:12:32,048 --> 01:12:33,381
- Okay.
- Great.

1460
01:12:38,253 --> 01:12:39,921
- Hi, are you Musa?
- [Musa] Yes.

1461
01:12:39,923 --> 01:12:42,023
- Hi, Musa, come on in.
- [Musa] All righty.

1462
01:12:42,858 --> 01:12:44,225
You can have a seat
right over there.

1463
01:12:45,294 --> 01:12:46,361
Oh, thank you.

1464
01:12:51,333 --> 01:12:53,501
So, you have a terrific husband.

1465
01:12:53,503 --> 01:12:56,003
Thank you, I know. [laughs]

1466
01:12:56,005 --> 01:12:58,005
Uh, and I'm really impressed
with him,

1467
01:12:58,007 --> 01:13:02,110
and I have some homework,
uh, that I gave to him.

1468
01:13:02,112 --> 01:13:05,146
And I want, um, Ontreon
to tell you about the homework

1469
01:13:05,148 --> 01:13:07,248
so that you can
support him in doing it.

1470
01:13:07,250 --> 01:13:10,785
So, Ontreon, tell Musa
about your homework.

1471
01:13:10,787 --> 01:13:13,054
Dr. Paradise wants me
to write about, um,

1472
01:13:13,056 --> 01:13:15,289
the grief and hope.

1473
01:13:15,291 --> 01:13:17,024
So you're gonna write
a sermon, right?

1474
01:13:17,026 --> 01:13:18,126
- [Ontreon] A sermon.
- Okay.

1475
01:13:18,128 --> 01:13:20,228
About, about that, so...

1476
01:13:20,230 --> 01:13:23,731
So you'll be a good, a good,
receptive audience to that.

1477
01:13:23,733 --> 01:13:24,999
- [Musa] Of course.
- Okay.

1478
01:13:25,001 --> 01:13:26,300
Are you, are you hopeful
for him?

1479
01:13:26,302 --> 01:13:27,902
- Oh, yes, I am.
- Okay.

1480
01:13:27,904 --> 01:13:30,238
- I will.
- [Dr. Paradise] Good.

1481
01:13:30,240 --> 01:13:32,874
Thanks for coming, guys.
Okay, take care, guys.

1482
01:13:32,876 --> 01:13:34,242
[Ontreon] All right,
thank you so much.

1483
01:13:34,877 --> 01:13:37,078
All right, baby.

1484
01:13:37,080 --> 01:13:39,046
- All right, one, two...
- Okay, on three.

1485
01:13:39,214 --> 01:13:41,048
One, two, three.

1486
01:13:42,284 --> 01:13:44,385
Don't you fall. [laughs]

1487
01:13:44,920 --> 01:13:46,788
- You got it?
- Yeah.

1488
01:13:46,790 --> 01:13:48,656
Thanks so much, Dr. Paradise.

1489
01:13:48,658 --> 01:13:50,958
<i>Well, that was challenging.</i>

1490
01:13:50,960 --> 01:13:52,760
<i>Dr. Paradise made
some good points</i>

1491
01:13:52,762 --> 01:13:55,163
<i>and I appreciate his outlook.</i>

1492
01:13:55,165 --> 01:13:58,299
<i>I don't know how to feel about
the homework he set out for me.</i>

1493
01:13:58,301 --> 01:14:00,701
<i>I wanted to be able
to move past things</i>

1494
01:14:00,703 --> 01:14:04,038
<i>in the past and get better.</i>

1495
01:14:04,040 --> 01:14:06,040
<i>And I know if I don't do
this type of stuff,</i>

1496
01:14:06,042 --> 01:14:08,142
<i>it's never gonna happen.</i>

1497
01:14:08,144 --> 01:14:09,944
<i>So I'll do what I have to do.</i>

1498
01:14:09,946 --> 01:14:11,179
[groans]

1499
01:14:21,657 --> 01:14:22,790
[Ontreon] Hello, how are you?

1500
01:14:22,792 --> 01:14:24,058
[cashier] Not bad,
how about yourself, man?

1501
01:14:24,060 --> 01:14:27,929
Good. Let me get, oh, um...

1502
01:14:27,931 --> 01:14:30,731
A caramel frappe
with a cinnamon roll.

1503
01:14:30,733 --> 01:14:32,166
- [cashier] You got it.
- Yeah.

1504
01:14:32,168 --> 01:14:33,801
All right, man. We will
get this right out for you.

1505
01:14:33,803 --> 01:14:35,169
Okay.

1506
01:14:39,007 --> 01:14:41,709
<i>Today, I'm taking some time
to do the homework</i>

1507
01:14:41,711 --> 01:14:45,079
<i>that Dr. Paradise wanted me
to do as a preacher.</i>

1508
01:14:45,081 --> 01:14:49,083
<i>I guess he wants me to write
a message about grief.</i>

1509
01:14:49,085 --> 01:14:52,286
<i>So I decided to grab me
something sweet</i>

1510
01:14:52,288 --> 01:14:55,289
<i>to help me out
with that process.</i>

1511
01:14:56,558 --> 01:14:59,527
<i>It's the little reward that
will help me stay focused.</i>

1512
01:15:01,797 --> 01:15:04,065
<i>So, David wrote
the Book of Psalms.</i>

1513
01:15:04,800 --> 01:15:07,134
<i>He was a king in the Bible.</i>

1514
01:15:07,136 --> 01:15:09,937
<i>You know, David,
he's slaying Goliath</i>

1515
01:15:09,939 --> 01:15:12,106
<i>when he was young.</i>

1516
01:15:12,941 --> 01:15:16,410
<i>And so, for him to grow up
being a young king...</i>

1517
01:15:17,746 --> 01:15:19,547
<i>being kind of isolated,</i>

1518
01:15:19,549 --> 01:15:22,083
<i>his life was full of grief.</i>

1519
01:15:23,151 --> 01:15:26,988
<i>I understand, because the
people that I connected to</i>

1520
01:15:26,990 --> 01:15:31,259
<i>that understood who I am,
they're gone.</i>

1521
01:15:31,261 --> 01:15:36,063
<i>And so, I understand
where David is at this point.</i>

1522
01:15:36,065 --> 01:15:38,733
<i>It was like David
was confessing.</i>

1523
01:15:38,735 --> 01:15:41,836
<i>I came to a place of this grief,</i>

1524
01:15:41,838 --> 01:15:45,172
<i>like, it brought depression,
it brought on physical pain,</i>

1525
01:15:45,174 --> 01:15:47,008
<i>it destroyed me.</i>

1526
01:15:47,809 --> 01:15:51,279
<i>You can tell
that depression set in.</i>

1527
01:15:52,681 --> 01:15:54,081
<i>So once he confessed,</i>

1528
01:15:54,083 --> 01:15:58,853
<i>God showed up
and started restoring him.</i>

1529
01:15:58,855 --> 01:16:01,255
<i>Trusting in God,
knowing that He's there,</i>

1530
01:16:01,257 --> 01:16:03,190
<i>knowing that He is with you,</i>

1531
01:16:03,192 --> 01:16:05,560
<i>you know, you can start
to overcome.</i>

1532
01:16:25,581 --> 01:16:28,049
[slow instrumental
music playing]

1533
01:16:36,158 --> 01:16:38,526
<i>I'm heading to my next
appointment with Dr. Now.</i>

1534
01:16:39,661 --> 01:16:40,962
<i>I'm super nervous</i>

1535
01:16:40,964 --> 01:16:43,164
<i>'cause this weigh-in can
make it or break it for me.</i>

1536
01:16:43,966 --> 01:16:46,000
<i>I continued working
on my emotional issues,</i>

1537
01:16:46,002 --> 01:16:48,336
<i>and making progress at that.</i>

1538
01:16:52,741 --> 01:16:55,810
<i>I have a long way to go
before I get to a good place,</i>

1539
01:16:55,812 --> 01:16:59,180
<i>but I'm hoping that the work
has led to more progress.</i>

1540
01:17:00,148 --> 01:17:02,984
<i>I'm scared because
I'm not sure that it has.</i>

1541
01:17:04,019 --> 01:17:07,521
<i>Working on all this
emotional stuff has been good,</i>

1542
01:17:08,790 --> 01:17:11,993
<i>but it made it a lot harder
for me sometimes to end it</i>

1543
01:17:11,995 --> 01:17:15,429
<i>because it makes me want to eat.</i>

1544
01:17:15,431 --> 01:17:19,166
<i>It really does, so it's just been a
struggle these last few months.</i>

1545
01:17:19,968 --> 01:17:21,369
Ontreon.

1546
01:17:23,238 --> 01:17:26,240
<i>[Ontreon] But I know that I'm
going in a positive direction,</i>

1547
01:17:26,242 --> 01:17:28,109
<i>now more than ever.</i>

1548
01:17:29,611 --> 01:17:32,279
<i>I just need my progress
to be enough.</i>

1549
01:17:32,281 --> 01:17:34,815
[nurse] Okay, you can go
ahead and step on the scale.

1550
01:17:34,817 --> 01:17:38,419
[Ontreon] <i>At my last
appointment I weighed 689 pounds,</i>

1551
01:17:40,255 --> 01:17:44,325
<i>and my assignment was to
lose 80 pounds in two months.</i>

1552
01:17:44,327 --> 01:17:47,962
<i>And if I did that today, I would've
been down to 609 pounds.</i>

1553
01:17:51,166 --> 01:17:53,300
Okay, your weight is 704.

1554
01:17:58,974 --> 01:18:01,042
<i>[Ontreon] You know,
I don't know what happened.</i>

1555
01:18:03,145 --> 01:18:05,446
It's so discouraging sometimes.

1556
01:18:08,116 --> 01:18:10,084
[nurse] Okay, we're gonna
go to Room Five.

1557
01:18:11,853 --> 01:18:13,521
<i>[Ontreon] It feels like
no matter what I do,</i>

1558
01:18:13,523 --> 01:18:15,089
<i>it's not gonna be good enough.</i>

1559
01:18:18,727 --> 01:18:22,029
<i>I can't help but feel
that I messed up my chances</i>

1560
01:18:24,800 --> 01:18:27,968
<i>because I know that Dr. Now
would not be happy.</i>

1561
01:18:29,938 --> 01:18:32,073
<i>And if he gives up on me,</i>

1562
01:18:32,075 --> 01:18:34,308
<i>that I know that
I will have let Musa down.</i>

1563
01:18:37,212 --> 01:18:38,412
[knocking at door]

1564
01:18:42,417 --> 01:18:43,984
Hello, how y'all doing?

1565
01:18:44,319 --> 01:18:45,286
Good.

1566
01:18:46,121 --> 01:18:47,188
Good.

1567
01:18:47,190 --> 01:18:50,758
Well, Ontreon, what is going on?

1568
01:18:50,760 --> 01:18:52,760
Because not only
did you gain weight,

1569
01:18:52,762 --> 01:18:55,296
you're heavier
than the first day I saw you.

1570
01:18:56,798 --> 01:18:58,232
So it's been seven months,

1571
01:18:58,234 --> 01:19:00,868
and you don't make any progress,

1572
01:19:00,870 --> 01:19:04,105
and nothing we have done
has been able to wake you up,

1573
01:19:04,107 --> 01:19:08,175
and it looks like that
includes psychotherapy, too.

1574
01:19:08,177 --> 01:19:11,245
Did you learn anything
from starting therapy?

1575
01:19:11,247 --> 01:19:14,148
What I learned is that,
um, I needed to deal

1576
01:19:14,150 --> 01:19:16,317
with the emotional baggage,

1577
01:19:16,852 --> 01:19:18,252
um, that I have

1578
01:19:18,254 --> 01:19:21,956
and to, uh, process it

1579
01:19:21,958 --> 01:19:24,825
and, um, learn
how to overcome it.

1580
01:19:24,827 --> 01:19:27,995
I don't know exactly
where I... I messed up at,

1581
01:19:27,997 --> 01:19:32,133
um, 'cause from our discussion
that me and him had, that...

1582
01:19:32,135 --> 01:19:34,101
That it was kind of

1583
01:19:34,103 --> 01:19:37,171
my emotional baggage
is related definitely

1584
01:19:37,173 --> 01:19:39,140
to the... To the weight.

1585
01:19:39,142 --> 01:19:40,808
So somewhere...

1586
01:19:40,810 --> 01:19:43,177
Somewhere I didn't
figure something out,

1587
01:19:43,179 --> 01:19:46,547
and so, um, I definitely
want to see him again,

1588
01:19:46,549 --> 01:19:50,584
um, to continue to work,
um, on the psychological part.

1589
01:19:50,586 --> 01:19:52,620
And I definitely
believe that the...

1590
01:19:52,622 --> 01:19:57,858
That the physical weight, too,
will line up. Um...

1591
01:19:57,860 --> 01:20:00,761
Well, how do you explain
that you gained 15 pounds

1592
01:20:00,763 --> 01:20:02,830
instead of losing any?

1593
01:20:02,832 --> 01:20:05,933
You haven't had made that
choice to change your life,

1594
01:20:05,935 --> 01:20:09,203
and you keep
gaining, gaining, gaining.

1595
01:20:09,205 --> 01:20:12,940
I don't have any objection for
you to seeing the therapist again.

1596
01:20:12,942 --> 01:20:14,375
So you go see,

1597
01:20:14,377 --> 01:20:17,178
uh, your therapist again

1598
01:20:17,180 --> 01:20:19,013
and have... Find a way

1599
01:20:19,015 --> 01:20:21,749
to figure out what is behind

1600
01:20:21,751 --> 01:20:25,152
all those emotional issues
that's driving you to eat.

1601
01:20:25,154 --> 01:20:28,022
And at this point,
we've done all we can,

1602
01:20:28,024 --> 01:20:30,024
but you haven't responded to it.

1603
01:20:30,026 --> 01:20:32,193
But you tell me,
is there anything

1604
01:20:32,195 --> 01:20:34,094
we can do to help you out?

1605
01:20:34,096 --> 01:20:36,463
Anything that we're missing?

1606
01:20:36,465 --> 01:20:38,766
What... What do you think,

1607
01:20:38,768 --> 01:20:43,304
um, we can give you
that is gonna work?

1608
01:20:43,306 --> 01:20:46,440
What do you think is the
solution for the problem?

1609
01:20:46,942 --> 01:20:48,175
Um...

1610
01:20:49,010 --> 01:20:51,312
To be honest right now,
I... You know...

1611
01:20:52,547 --> 01:20:54,982
You know, I... I don't know.
So I guess my...

1612
01:20:54,984 --> 01:20:57,084
My thing is...

1613
01:20:57,086 --> 01:20:59,753
Is that no, I don't have...
I'm not where...

1614
01:20:59,755 --> 01:21:01,355
Where we want to be,

1615
01:21:02,190 --> 01:21:04,325
but just don't
give up on me yet.

1616
01:21:05,727 --> 01:21:08,529
You don't have to.
It's not your position to.

1617
01:21:09,364 --> 01:21:12,066
You can, that's fine.
I understand,

1618
01:21:13,468 --> 01:21:16,170
but I know there's progress
that's been made.

1619
01:21:16,172 --> 01:21:20,140
It's just not as significant
as where we want it to be

1620
01:21:20,142 --> 01:21:22,676
and maybe even as quickly
as we want it to be,

1621
01:21:22,678 --> 01:21:24,545
but there's progress.

1622
01:21:24,547 --> 01:21:28,082
I can say today that,
yes, I want to live today.

1623
01:21:28,084 --> 01:21:31,051
You asked me that yesterday
and I was honest with you.

1624
01:21:31,053 --> 01:21:33,020
I would have told you
no, I don't care,

1625
01:21:33,188 --> 01:21:35,289
but today, I do.

1626
01:21:35,291 --> 01:21:37,157
You know, It's just
one step at a time,

1627
01:21:37,159 --> 01:21:39,860
and it is frustrating.

1628
01:21:39,862 --> 01:21:46,233
You know... You know
everybody was upset at the scale,

1629
01:21:46,235 --> 01:21:49,069
but they don't feel
the disappointment that I feel

1630
01:21:49,971 --> 01:21:51,272
and the frustration.

1631
01:21:52,040 --> 01:21:54,008
So that's on me,

1632
01:21:54,010 --> 01:21:57,011
you know, we can...
We can talk about whatever,

1633
01:21:57,679 --> 01:22:00,314
but that hurts me
more than anybody else

1634
01:22:00,316 --> 01:22:02,716
because I know...
I know the changes that...

1635
01:22:02,718 --> 01:22:03,884
That I've been making

1636
01:22:03,886 --> 01:22:07,254
and trying to be make...
And try to keep making.

1637
01:22:07,256 --> 01:22:11,892
Even though I struggle, even
though the weight says one thing,

1638
01:22:11,894 --> 01:22:13,360
I've been making changes

1639
01:22:13,929 --> 01:22:15,796
and doing my best,

1640
01:22:15,798 --> 01:22:20,000
and... And I understand. I
understand everything that you said.

1641
01:22:20,002 --> 01:22:21,936
I understand everything
that Musa said,

1642
01:22:21,938 --> 01:22:24,038
even my mother,

1643
01:22:24,040 --> 01:22:27,041
you know, even friends,
I understand all of it,

1644
01:22:27,175 --> 01:22:28,976
and but it's just...

1645
01:22:30,245 --> 01:22:33,881
You know, I just... I just gotta
keep to... Continue to work.

1646
01:22:33,883 --> 01:22:36,583
[Dr. Now] Ontreon, I get
what you're saying,

1647
01:22:36,585 --> 01:22:39,486
and I don't doubt that you're
working on some things

1648
01:22:39,488 --> 01:22:42,589
and making
some level of progress,

1649
01:22:42,591 --> 01:22:46,927
but this program with me
can't start without a choice.

1650
01:22:46,929 --> 01:22:50,097
That is the, uh,
situation that we are in,

1651
01:22:50,099 --> 01:22:53,867
and you, in your mind,
you haven't made that choice.

1652
01:22:53,869 --> 01:22:57,237
You just, um,
keep eating everything,

1653
01:22:57,239 --> 01:23:01,175
and you want somebody
to accept the way you are,

1654
01:23:01,177 --> 01:23:03,277
and you don't want
to lose weight,

1655
01:23:03,279 --> 01:23:06,113
and you just want
to make a gesture of it,

1656
01:23:06,115 --> 01:23:08,549
but you're running out of time.

1657
01:23:08,551 --> 01:23:12,119
So I hope to see you
wake up at some point,

1658
01:23:12,121 --> 01:23:14,121
but unless that happens,
there is no need

1659
01:23:14,123 --> 01:23:16,190
to keep wasting time.

1660
01:23:16,192 --> 01:23:19,226
But if you do turn things
around, give me a call.

1661
01:23:19,228 --> 01:23:21,996
Other than that,
I wish you luck. Okay?

1662
01:23:21,998 --> 01:23:23,130
Okay.

1663
01:23:23,132 --> 01:23:24,932
All right, have
a safe trip back.

1664
01:23:24,934 --> 01:23:25,933
Thank you so much.

1665
01:23:25,935 --> 01:23:27,334
[Dr. Now] Bye.

1666
01:23:32,340 --> 01:23:35,576
It is always disappointing
to get to this point.

1667
01:23:35,578 --> 01:23:38,812
I was hoping
sending Ontreon to therapy

1668
01:23:38,814 --> 01:23:42,082
<i>would at least start him
going in the right direction,</i>

1669
01:23:42,084 --> 01:23:44,318
<i>even if it was
just a little bit.</i>

1670
01:23:44,320 --> 01:23:47,221
<i>But the fact that
he gained weight since then</i>

1671
01:23:47,223 --> 01:23:49,957
<i>shows me even more
that he's still waiting</i>

1672
01:23:49,959 --> 01:23:53,193
for someone to save him
from his situation

1673
01:23:53,195 --> 01:23:55,696
<i>and solve his problems for him.</i>

1674
01:23:55,698 --> 01:23:57,197
<i>And that's not gonna work.</i>

1675
01:23:57,199 --> 01:24:00,100
<i>There is no magic solution
out there for him.</i>

1676
01:24:00,102 --> 01:24:03,937
<i>And until he starts to take
responsibility for himself</i>

1677
01:24:03,939 --> 01:24:07,007
<i>to take the first step
towards taking his life back,</i>

1678
01:24:07,009 --> 01:24:09,576
then there is nothing
we can do for him

1679
01:24:09,578 --> 01:24:12,613
to help him, as much
as we may want to.

1680
01:24:12,615 --> 01:24:17,017
<i>But the fact that he wants to
keep going to therapy is positive,</i>

1681
01:24:17,019 --> 01:24:19,853
<i>and if he does that,
then I'm hopeful that Ontreon</i>

1682
01:24:19,855 --> 01:24:21,855
<i>will get to the point</i>

1683
01:24:21,857 --> 01:24:25,959
where he does wake up to make
the choices he needs to save his life

1684
01:24:25,961 --> 01:24:27,928
<i>so that, at some point
down the road,</i>

1685
01:24:27,930 --> 01:24:30,064
we can move ahead with him.

1686
01:24:30,066 --> 01:24:33,467
<i>I just hope he does it
before his time runs out.</i>

1687
01:24:36,538 --> 01:24:39,807
[Ontreon] <i>Well, I know I have
a lot of soul-searching to do,</i>

1688
01:24:39,809 --> 01:24:44,044
<i>and I think that, with Dr. Now
sending me to therapy,</i>

1689
01:24:44,046 --> 01:24:46,880
<i>I see that I've given up
on myself, deep inside.</i>

1690
01:24:46,948 --> 01:24:48,281
Okay.

1691
01:24:48,283 --> 01:24:52,052
<i>And I know that I need to
change that if I want to live.</i>

1692
01:24:54,622 --> 01:24:56,156
<i>I know I need to
fight for my life,</i>

1693
01:24:56,158 --> 01:24:58,358
<i>'cause I feel like
I'm letting everyone down.</i>

1694
01:25:01,729 --> 01:25:02,863
[grunting]

1695
01:25:02,865 --> 01:25:05,132
<i>But that doesn't mean
I'm giving up.</i>

1696
01:25:05,134 --> 01:25:07,801
<i>In some ways,
I'm just beginning.</i>

1697
01:25:07,803 --> 01:25:10,304
[breathing heavily]

1698
01:25:10,306 --> 01:25:14,007
<i>I know that I have a lot of
work to do to save my life,</i>

1699
01:25:14,175 --> 01:25:16,310
<i>but strangely enough,</i>

1700
01:25:16,312 --> 01:25:20,047
<i>I feel like for the first time
in a long time,</i>

1701
01:25:20,049 --> 01:25:21,982
<i>that I'm gonna try to do it.</i>